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I keep dreaming of a familiar house, but I have never seen it in real life. I've had this dream in the past, when I was much younger. The house belongs to my grandmother, and we children are living in it for some reason. The dream almost feels like a memory. Three stories, but no one goes on the third floor. It is off-limits. It is night, so ( Read more... ) -
Currency - 2008
Chances that were given,
Never readily taken.
Wounds that were inflicted
Never properly healed.
Now no way of telling.
Now no way to relinquish guilt.
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Currents. 1
Dark. Turn on the light. Her hand brushed lightly against his shoulder. He was breathing slowly and deep. He was tired. Last night was a hard one for him. She felt bad for having to wake him up so early, but it was time. She couldn't let him postpone it any longer. They needed fresh water and food. As the small lamp shined dimly, she eyed ( Read more... ) -
Desert Winds - 2009
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Mental Constipation - 2008
I just want to write. I yearn for the words to flow from my fingers as they once did. It never mattered if they brought another to feel or not, if they called the innermost feelings of a stranger out through their beauty or deformity, their insight or lack of it. I just want to write. The pen gliding across the paper. A smooth rub to create ( Read more... ) -
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Driving to work today (at around noon becuase we had late reporting due to the snow), I could only think of one thing: Maryland is so fucking georgous in the winter! I love all of the trees! When it snows, you get this fairy tale look that just isn't quite complete in Illinois. The only thing that detracted from the feeling (or added to it?) ( Read more... ) -
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One thing I will miss about Fort Meade: Snow days. Late reporting today, which means I got to sleep in. I'm glad for the late reporting also, because Seth got stuck here last night. We invited him over, and he got stuck in the snow trying to park. We had to run out there and push his car in a spot. Since I'm tiny, I just drove as the boys ( Read more... ) -
Cancellation
My orders have been cancelled. I have a day to think about what I want to do about it. I can try to get them reinstated, but there is no guarantee that I will get the same orders. I have to reenlist, then hope I get orders that I like. That is what I have been trying not to do. But I feel strangely satisfied with this turn of events, actually ( Read more... ) -
quick disintegration
Such a quick, harsh blow. The pain was quite physical, even. A low-pitch whirring in the back of my mind, gaining speed and volume until my brain was enveloped in the pain of the overbearing noise. Down, into my chest, vibrating with such cruelty that I couldn't stop coughing. Down, into my stomach, churning until food no longer gave me ( Read more... ) -
withering wisps
I heal so quickly when I choose to let myself. Already, you seem as though a ghost haunting me. Whenever I am alone with my thoughts, you creep in. You are blending into the background, whispering memories. Quieter and quieter, and soon there will be nothing left of you but an echo that will soon fade to silence. I barely even miss you any ( Read more... )