I really have tried to not think about all this shit and not thinking about the fucking pain but i cant it hurts so bad! and seriously i tell myself not to care but sadly i do....the last couple of dayz iv been hangin out with Riane no change and Atrian they both keep my mind off it so much...i need to just be with my friends and not think about ( Read more... )

Me nd james broke up....

Atrain had a party last night......i cant hang out with ricky cuz fred told my parents he was home.....

...fuck it

so last night i went to show alyssa my car and of course she rubbed it in my face that shes gonna have a better car than me and this is gonna be "the ride" for only a year or what not well what i have to say is fuck it i have a car now and i love my car...then apparently she sed that her nd ricky talk about how bad my hair looks haha well thats 2 ( Read more... )

so this christmas was unbelievable it was the best xmas ever!!!! first ricky came home then james got me my coat then on xmas morning i woke up and got basically everything i wanted excpet for my bass but i dont care cuz around 900 my dad was like help me with the presents in my truck and we went outside and there was a '97 ford probe sitting in ( Read more... )

so i cant write about james anymore so im srry if u dont hear about him...he'll get mad...

Ricky will be home at 5...very excited i dont think were hanging out until maybe tomarrow night...meh..

Tonight im hanging out with jon and riane tonight im very excited its gonan be fun i love my friends!!

well ill write later XxOo

okay seriously this is getting stressful...what do i do when i think of what he's putting mw threw it makes me feel likeim gonna throw up....why cant i be the best g/f to him...what have i done to make him like this to me...i know that but he says he forgives me about that...i just dont know anymore you know i dont know who to turn to who to cry to ( Read more... )

i have really gotten to the point of not getting him...he first like tells me he'll habg out with me then is like i cant i have o go home and he'll go out with his friends theen he'll be allstressed and he'll run to me for 2 1/2 months then all of a sudden stop and thheeen he'll pull this hipacrit act like he did the other night oh i dont want u ( Read more... )

yah im in history class suppose to be doing a project but i got enough info all i have to do is typr it up...so yesterday i went to the brain dr. to figure out why i have all there migrains...then i hung out with james and fell asleep....meh...today im getting my hair vut and dyed at 3 and then going to holies for the weekend at 530...tomarrow ill ( Read more... )

Last night i went to dancing and came home talked on the fone for a couple hours with friends....Im suppose to go to my sisters house on Friday night then to cam's party on sat night but i know james doesnt trust me....w/ alcohol that is..mayb i just wont drink alot you know...Riane might be coming with me to the party tho so ill have someone... ( Read more... )

What is your name?: Kristen anne bleiler ( Read more... )