Yeah so it has been a while since I updated this thing ( Read more... )

I can only do so much on my own, sometimes I wonder why Im even trying when they all refuse to help me or give me the help that I ask for whic wouldnt be all that hard, more depression meds so i can start to feel better is that really asking for too much ( Read more... )

fuck it i just dont care anymore

mutilation out of sight and contemplating suicide

you know the drill, bold what you do, etc.

I miss somebody right now.

I don't watch much TV these days. -- actually, i watch more than i have in the past. still not a lot, but more than i used to.

I love olives.

I love sleeping

I own lots of books.

I wear glasses or contact lenses

I love to play video games

I've tried marijuana.I've ( Read more... )

WTF? 
Why do I feel liek this, like get these thoughts?   
I feel so fat, I feel so ugly I feel so depressed, and I feel so horrid.  Its liek a mugger, Im innocently walking around then WHAM I get ambushed outta nowhere adn am hurt adn laying on the ground crying. 

so I dont check my freekin email for a day or two, now I am "required" to do that or talk to them at leaste once a fucking day.  Im 22 god dammit not 12 years old, I have my own life that they know nothing about and cant even grasp the concept of even when I sit down and try to explain it to them,  They think it is as easy as jsut saying the words ( Read more... )

its all good when your family forgets about you ( Read more... )

"Hold On ( Read more... )

ASICS ( Read more... )

I cant, I cant fucking do this anymore