For the next 14 days I'm living off of:
*Zantrex
*Stacker 3
*Mega Green-T
*Diurex
*Carb Cutter
*Guifenasin
*Sudafed
*Green Tea
*Going to the gym everyday, do my weight routine
*burn 400 cals at the gym

If I don't I'm sure I'll do something that I'll regret...I probably will tonight to.
*Water

The past two days have been interesting. I started up my raw plan again yesterday. I feel a LITTLE better but have come to learn that I'm not allergic to pineapple! My mouth started to burn, get all itchy, fever, and swollen! what fun ( Read more... )

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I feel so gross. The voices in my head are getting stronger. Here's what I hear ( Read more... )

I continuouly bounce from one ED to another. I'm honestly not sure WHAT I am now. I don't WANT to be labeled ya know? Maybe I just have disordered eating now or am I in denial ( Read more... )

I havn't updated here in forever. I tried to "recover" but now i'm like...screw healthy. I havn't b/ped in over four weeks :) Today is the anniversary of the day I began purging ( Read more... )

"And the million dollar question is ( Read more... )

Today wasn't good. Neither was last night. I b/ped twice yesterday. Stayed up ALL night and went to bed at 6:30 this morning. Woke up at 10:30 and still awake. Insomnia has hit hard ( Read more... )

DisorderRatingParanoid:ModerateSchizoid:LowSchizotypal:HighAntisocial:ModerateBorderline:Very HighHistrionic:Very HighNarcissistic:HighAvoidant:Very HighDependent:HighObsessive-Compulsive:High
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"I sit here tired, dizzy, and angry at myself for surrendering to this demon, this enemy who distorts my mind, making me believe he is my friend, my only road to happiness and success. I wonder why and how I have managed to let myself be tricked into my old beliefs. Have I not realized that this thing brings exactly the opposite of what I want? I ( Read more... )