it amazes me how different I am than this girl now. It also amazes me that I feel exactly the same. Mostly, sad.

some days i am so lonely that i only want to curl up in the dark and wish for tomorrow. what happened? i lost everyone that cared for me and somehow i cant seem to get them back. i dont let anyone get close to me and if they do i run. and now im choosing to leave the family, the only family, that took me in for some reason and made me a member. im ( Read more... )

so this is life. things have been stressfull lately... money and school mostly. but i guess im surviving. i figured out that its really not the end of the world if i get shitty grades, just a new direction for my life to turn. new endeavors, new adventures, more and more wisdom. wow.... its been a long time, hasn't it? crazy how fast life moves. ( Read more... )

its time for some lists to organize my life ( Read more... )

so im pretty sure ive fucked everything up. i let it all go, i pushed everything away, i blew out the flame. just when i thought i knew who i wanted to be, i realized that i just fucked everything up. and its not "no big deal," this is my life. and now im a failure,,, and in the end, it doesnt really matter if people care.. its whether or not you ( Read more... )

tonight i face reality ( Read more... )

some day soon, my eyes will meet yours ( Read more... )

i am supposed to try to post my emotions and its impossible.

so ill post nothing

I couldn't sleep last night because I know that it's over between us. I'm not bitter any more, because I know that what we had was real. And if in some distant place in the future we see each other in our new lives, I'll smile at you with joy and remember how we spent the summer beneath the trees, learning from each other and growing in love. The ( Read more... )

QtieAshley (5:38:24 PM): how are you ( Read more... )