who are we
in our silence
never matching
our awakened state

respectively, missing you and i.

people have complex relationships.
i can't even write about what i want to write about... because people have complex relationships.
enough about that...
i don't know what to wear for work today. i'm fat-ish.
i get to pick up my check today.
it's friday... so that's a good thing.

oh fucking aye.. shut up, alarm clock!

literally and figuratively ( Read more... )

hello there. it's me again. i'm tired. my work week is over. thank god. my favorite book is gone. each day i have thought about it since it's untimely departure. i need to find another one. purchase, rather. it bothers me most. well.. that and the bag. i had it since high school.. it had POOP carved out from the polo sport logo. tears. virtual ones ( Read more... )

here i am. i figured, why not. it is very early in the AM.. almost 2. i am awake and pondering where my life has gone. it's here. in a bed. in need of a haircut. abundantly underweight. i got my window fixed. who cares. i'm going to start drinking a lot of water again. i did it today. but i want to do it in a healthy way. water with no food can ( Read more... )

i know.. you're thinking... why are you back? i didn't even know you were gone. i don't even KNOW you. or wait.. i think that's the A1 steak sauce commercial. more importantly, i am back. i think am. as of right this minute in the early morning. i guess it's a much needed change from yahoo pool and craigslist. so send me welcome back hellos. or

heavy and unclever
inside my stomach
anchors
and weight
just
stuck
just
and always
sticking.

heart flutters
and heart dreams
little secrets wishing
on revelations.

here i dwell
almost negative
not nearly descriptive
empty and passive
and bland and smug
and silly and grey.

I will stop trying to become something I am not.
I will become better at who I am.

what goes on in my head from one day to the next... i don't quite understand it.. never have.. maybe one day i will. maybe one day i'll be happy. what'ya say tanja.. throw me a happy day. just one, hm?

what is there of any interest for me to say these days?? not much.. i haven't really been doing anything all too exciting.. hanging out a bit here and there.. killing myself with this lame new doggy day care job in brooklyn... to get some money.. now i have the most horrid cramps ever. always fun. i am single. it's alright. i've been pretty single ( Read more... )