I am so confused. I thought I knew what I wanted. I thought I knew where my heart wanted but now I am more lost than I have ever been in my life. I am in love. But I don't think the one I love wants me back. There's the one that I had back in charlotte that I didn't pick and after an afternoon of talking I was filled with a million regrets. ( Read more... )

I found some pictures and just wanted to post some of them... they are nice of me and remmy... when I can scan the ones from the show I will post them

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So I got the letter back from my doctor and it said that they found mild dysplasia. Well at first that didnt sound too bad but then I desided that I wanted to know what the heck dysplasia is so I looked it up on the internet. I had the internet! It told me that they found pre-cancer cells and that I am going to have to be checked ever six months ( Read more... )

Alright I am so stressed that it isnt funny! Its been almost 2 weeks and I had not heard anything from the doctor, and to make matters worse I am still bleeding from it... Not good.. So I called and they said to wait till next week and that right now I am alright but every 6 months they want to retest me which means I am a high risk for cancer ( Read more... )

For the two people *debitha and Jen* that know what is going on with school I figured I would update here, though I am not even sure if you guys read it or not. As you know I went in last week to do my petition to get back in and I have been SCARED to death to check my emails! I was so scared they were not going to let me back in, but finally I ( Read more... )

Well its been a long time since I wrote in this thing. Since NO ONE else does either!!!!!!!!! Jen, Debitha, Sara?????????? Come on now I need something to read in class ( Read more... )

Yeah so I am a fucking back stabing bitch and I look like a horse. Wow I got this interesting message on myspace of all places from Bre. Seems she hates me and blames me for her getting fired. Yeah pretty sure that its not my fault. I didnt make her act the way that she does. And I guess I talk about her behind her back and she hears it all ( Read more... )

Wow I just got my test grades back from my persuasion class.. Yeah do believe that I got a B... Me happy! LOL I just have to keep my grades up in my other two classes and I think I will do alright. I was really worried before but its still early and now I have more confidence in myself and I think that I will be able to do it! YAY for me ( Read more... )

OMG I am so freaking tired and I feel like crap. I couldnt sleep last nite. I really cant take the stress anymore and to add to it the drama with Tony!!!!!!! For those of you that dont know I dated this guy Tony when I was working at Kintec in the short time that Patrick and I werent together. I was 20 he was 32. Yeah what would he want with a ( Read more... )