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Youth is wasted on the young
Haven't been on here in several years and looking back at my old entries makes me cringe. I've changed a lot as a person and amazingly (as it seems to me) I feel like i've matured a lot too. -
We stay too long in the same old sickly skin
This darkness is closing in and there is no light at the end of the tunnel. I can not see any future for me. I have nothing. I have no one. I am not living, I am barely existing. What point is there in just taking up space? I can't keep working jobs I hate, can't muster up any enthusiasm for school, can't stand just lying around the house doing ( Read more... ) -
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"Slowly, over the years, the data will accumulate in your heart and mind, a computer program for total negativity will build into your system, making life feel more and more unbearable ( Read more... ) -
I'm falling apart. I'm barely breathing.
Depression is hard. Duh, of course. Part of what makes it so hard is that most people don't understand. They ask you, why are you sad? I wish I knew is my answer. It's the truth but it almost seems like it makes people angry. If you're life isn't a tale of woe and trauma they think you have no reason to be sad. So mostly I pretend to be okay. ( Read more... ) -
Give me a long kiss goodnight, and everything will be alright, tell me that I won't feel a thing
It was Christmas 2004 and I was horribly depressed. Depressed to the point that just existing felt unbearable. I listened to this album a lot then. Especially this song.
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"And I will fall a hundred stories
And open up my hand
And scatter all my dreams of glory
Like seeds upon the land
And I'll join the league of failures
I bet that I'll be glad
To fall a hundred stories
And I'll have peace at last" -
I am a bottomless pit of fail
Moving out was a huge mistake. I'm lonely and miserable and stuck here. I mean I was depressed before but now I'm all alone and depressed. I miss my family and my other cats. (I feel like I've done a huge disservice to Alec making him stay here with me since I'm such a mess) Slept till after 2 p.m. today cause I just couldn't face getting out of ( Read more... ) -
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I don't get people. I don't know how to deal with them and I'm not sure I even want to try anymore. -
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I can has an apartment? Yes I can! I got it. Moving in October! :)
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