quick update, im alive and breathing. Everything has been for the most part put into my myspace. I just need to keep this up and running bc it has years of info and my entry about my dads death that means the most. Also my posts before that that mention my dad. Being alive. Like dad was so mean today or something like that. I would be ( Read more... )

Well i haven't updated in forever, im suprised. Myspace consumed all my time, that and my computer sucks hairy donkey balls. So a lil catch up then? There was this guy brett, he almost moved in, he got arressted...then theres this guy brian, we have big plans together and im excited. Im still angry and haven't seen my mom. Also work still ( Read more... )

In six months i will have decided what it is i want for myself. Do i want to continue here waitressing? Maybe in a few months ill feel different. Maybe i wont. The thing is, maybe this is the motivation i need to get out and be myself and find my own and not get stuck here. All i want to do is go crawl and cry into my mothers arms but shes not ( Read more... )

Seeing aarons picture on myspace just freaked me out. Hes the only guy i can say that i truly ever for sure loved. Whether it was puppy love or not, it was love. And now hes older, and he doesn't seem much older like he did when i was fourteen. Six years later. Damn, technically like five. In two more days it would be the anniversary of me ( Read more... )

Well my birthday has come and passed. I lit my own candles and sang happy birthday to myself. When it was all said and done, i made a wish. I hope it comes true and i hope i have a better birthday next year. Its the day of my birth and I'm supposed to celebrate and all i could think of was, how cool would it be if i died and people would say, ( Read more... )

I hope you know, YOUR the reason you have no daughter. Bloody hearts and broken memories, my mom died last year along with my dad. It just took me this long to realize i was living with a shell of the woman who used to be, inhabited by someone else. I'll mourn for my dead mother, but not for you. Your a liar and i hope when you die, you die in ( Read more... )

Okay i had this long entry then my computer decides it will have a fucking seizure and die. SOoooo let me recap this it will be choppy for the most part, but at least youll get the jist ( Read more... )

dear live journal, men suck, im in a constant battle with bulimia now more than ever in fact tonight i almost busted a vain or however you spell it, in my eye, and when brushing my hair, clumps came out. Theres talk at work about how a girl at work might be bulimic bc shes constantly going to the bathroom. Ha ironic and i bet she isn't. Not that ( Read more... )

Yep you read right! I move in next friday. I am so nervous to be officially living on my own, but how cool is it? I'm so proud of myself. Most people my age aren't at my level of maturity making it on their own and working hard. This is quite an accomplishment. Yay.

wtf! lil jon, snoop dog,xibit and other famous rappers as Korn. ITS GENIOUS. I love seeing other ppl in music back other types of music up. HAHAHA X is gettin into it ( Read more... )