People talk shit about grind. Even people into grind, they're not into YOUR grind. They only listen to cybergrind or pornogore. Well whatever. I'm listening to this German band Yacopsae and it's just like hearing Dead Kennedys for the first time. It just feels good. It makes me want to inflict something. John and I are submitting our shit to ( Read more... )

5. Alice Cooper - Killer ( Read more... )

The X-Files movie was awesome. Angry self-righteous livejournal posts aren't really.

I hate feeling one-sided electricity. I keep wanting to kiss people, and it's never the right ones. I just wish I was the answer to someone else's question the way I keep thinking they're the one to mine (and they could be). I'm scared that it's going to keep getting harder to get up and do the same shit every day just waiting for it to get ( Read more... )

I have never felt so god damn nervous all the time wanting someone to just tell me if I'm doing the right thing putting myself on the line for them. It isn't rejection that I'm worried about, I just hate always feeling like a puppy and an idiot. I just don't want to come out feeling like a fool on the other side. I already feel like one, turning ( Read more... )

Stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid. I'm just not the attractive one when the sides are picked.

It isn't laziness, I just get locked up. I never open my blinds, I never start my day on my own initiative. Going outside just sounds like a big waste of time most days. My legs literally ache when I think about moving them. Oh well, gotta get to work gotta get money gotta eat gotta sleep gotta do it all again. What a wonderful life!

I can't imagine what in this was ever a good read, but I have some more to write down I guess. Driving home from Dylan's just now with the sun just coming up, I could hone some points down to less vague terms. Life can be more than a 40 hour work week. Life can be more than a series of doctor's appointments, a bottle of pills once a month, ( Read more... )

To all those who have left a comment or comments on the internet along the lines of, "I LOVE HOW THIS IDIOT IS MAKING FUN OF ALL THESE PEOPLE FOR SPELLING AND STUFF AND THEN HE USES 'THAN' INSTEAD OF 'THEN' lol :D NICE GOING, JEEZ!", I have only this to say - go fuck yourself, what the fuck useless shit goes on in your head day-to-day? Fucking die ( Read more... )

Oh hey look the sun's up. I feel like talking to someone, and everyone's asleep, so I thought I'd talk to the internet. I have a lot on my mind. I'm viewed here as a dumb person who is good for a laugh, but then resented for producing good work. Or I'm the kid who stares at a piece of paper for 20 minutes in class literally blocking his eyes ( Read more... )