Hold my mouth to hold in a scream

[farbeyondcaring]

Thirty Seven was the hour when I broke my will.
It was the hour when truth became a lie.
It was the hour I loathed.
The hour I suffered.
The hour I wondered if there was a person under this mask of departure.

I doubt it, I really do.
I'm drowning
I'm sedate.
I'm an advocate of turmoil.

Comments

[undoingpink]

dear t-monster,
ishmael MAY or MAY NOT have gotten you the coolest present of your lifetime in philly today.
i'm sure the anticipation will kill you :)
sincerely,
Avalon

[farbeyondcaring]

That would rocket my spirits into the cosmos! I miss you. Have fun you kids.

[trollheim]

so I'm in this crazy daze all the time now...it's actually pretty interesting...it's one of those dazes that you think you can sleep off but you wake up and realize that it's not going away. Everything is just distorted a little, enough to make me wonder what really is distorted. I'm scared to drive because I feel like I'm not as acute as I should be. I figure if I'm going insane I might as well speed up the process and go full blown. What's the point in waiting? If I already have lung cancer should I stop smoking now? I miss you man.