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Insomnia
Can't sleep, so I got up and did my taxes. I miss living alone, I miss when this was less a void and more cozy chatting in the internet darkness. Too tired to write real things, too restless to rest. I miss living alone (I love my fiance) I think what I mean is I miss having somewhere to walk to in the middle of the night and I miss the loneliness ( Read more... ) -
*mic tap* hello?
Anybody still out there? -
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A year ends, a year begins. -
Samhain Remembrance
It's Samhain, and I'm not feeling super great, so I may not manage a big ritual this weekend. This is my virtual offering to some of my beloved dead:
To my grandfather Cy, caramels, songs sung off-key, and the biggest hugs in the world.
To my grandmother Mabel, a slice of blackberry pie and late night summer drives listening to Patsy Cline.
To Aunt ( Read more... ) -
Friday Ephemera
- Patti Smith wrote the lyrics for "Because the Night" while waiting for her lover to call. If only my frustration were that poignant.
- I submitted a new poem for publication this week, we'll see if it goes.
- Still working on the damn succubus story.
- Healing from surgery continues apace. Scar tape is annoying.
- Work is going well, lots of new projects and ( Read more... )
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Night before surgery
Surgery in about 9 hours. I feel. . .mostly empty? Ready, but queasy, like the night before a flight. All the prep has me edgy--extra stuff in my room, a partner in my bed. . .too much going on. It was way too hot today, which didn't help. Too much stimulation, too hot too loud too touchy. I'm sure it'll all go fine, I just feel restless and edgy. ( Read more... ) -
Crossposting test
This is a test post! -
A poem about Marriage Equality
Yesterday and Next Year
with gratitude to Alyssa Harley
Yesterday
was hard. The Supreme Court
decided I could marry
a man or a woman with impunity,
just three days after a Latina trans immigrant was booed out of the White House
for saying the struggle is not over
because she has bigger problems than a hers&hers wedding registry.
I did it too. I said to ( Read more... ) -
Figuring it out
What do you want? No, what do you really want?
I'm dealing with some emotional bullshit right now. I had a date with someone I like(d) a lot, and then in the course of what started as flirty text messaging, I hit one of their triggers (totally inadvertently!). Their response, which was entirely valid, happened to stumble into one of my behaviors ( Read more... ) -
Fragment, for MM
I would give almost anything to stop missing you.
To stop probing the edges of
this hole in my life
like the space where a tooth was knocked out,
the taste of blood, the sudden
jagged gap in perfection when plans change.