i have lost myself and it's time to go looking

[farewell2gary]

I am coming closer to a realization. It is hard to stare in the face of your biggest fear every day and not flinch. Like living on the edge of a knife. My nerves are shot, I am a shell of my former self and I am so tired of being down

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[ximafatpunkx]

you know what will make you feel better?

hanging out. let's do it this week.

you got it

[farewell2gary]

i have been so swamped with work lately, sorry i haven't called you. this week for sure. do you need a job for the summer???

[ucfchic]

So I get a post from one Gary with a phone number.
So I call up this phone number (which for your info I hate calling up boys... even ones I knew at one time) and this Gary tells me he is going to some something with one Cassie and that I should come.
So I go on about my evening as I would anyother evening... but with the expectation of a return phone call.
But, there was in fact no return phone call. I found out through one live journal that other plans were made. It's a good thing that I had made other plans too or else one Gary would have hurt my feelings.

Long story short: I'm still in Orlando, still willing to hang out with you, and maybe I can help you solve your problems, or at least be an ear to listen. So, you know the number.

sorry

[farewell2gary]

yeh i am a totla jerk...im really sorry. i ended up not going out, i was so tired. i am always tired after work. i will call you this week!!!!! Please forgive me. I am bad at returning phone calls!!!

[anthonyxoxo]

when i first read your subject line i thought it said "i have lost myself and it's time to go googling."

actually, technological soul searching might be productive

maybe

[farewell2gary]

i'll try anything once...you did mean porn right?

[cubaricho]

I agree with kretzdaddy - crucial hang time is needed.