I was looking through my old diary entries and I've realized something. Over the past years I've been obsessing about how I hate the way I look and how i need to lose weight, how I am struggling to do so, and how I want to weigh under 120 pounds. Meanwhile, I still haven't done so. I talk about how I am determined to lose the weight and make that ( Read more... )

i like this new person right now. i like him and he is really sweet and nice and everything. he's cute too, well to me he's pretty. I'm going to use my love for him to lose weight. How could anyone love me with this fat covering I have? i mean, he can't even see the real me. The real me is deep down inside of all this. All these layers of fat and ( Read more... )

It is 6:47 am right now. I need to start off the school day well, avoiding all food. I tend to eat most of my day's worth of calories in lunch and then a normal amount for dinner. today I need to eat a whole lot less, not sure exactly what I'll what. I'll need to stay under 1000 calories, definitely, because if I don't start now I'm gonna be a fat ( Read more... )

Had an argument with a couple of people today. I was trying to be diplomatic so when i got home I was p-ed off. I hate people that think they can just come in and change everything because they feel that they are the best. All you people like that can go suck an egg. lol. So far it is 5:03 pm and I am almost at 800 calories. I want to finish all my ( Read more... )

Hey. Today is a wonderful morning and I'm gonna make it a glorious day. Write back here later :)

Today I kinda withstrained from eating the worst foods. I must've gone back up to 2000 calories. I think I'm being too cheap on sleep. I bet that if I got one night of like 8 hrs of sleep I'd have less cravings. I mean, I end up sleeping five and a half to six hours a night, which really isn't good. And I get energy dips so I crave sugar. Bought a ( Read more... )

omg yesterday I ate soooo much. An unbelievable amount of food. i was disgusted with myself. Today I ate alot too but when I counted the calories it was like 1700 or something. Yesterday was almost 3000. That's horrible. I already gained a few pounds and that did not help. So now I need to lose at least 10 pounds by next month. I have a school trip ( Read more... )

Today went by okay. It seemed to be progressing in my favor. I talked to some boys in my school that usually don't talk to me. It's nice, even if they aren't the hottest boys or anything. They are the nicest around. I guess in the end, it's personality that matters the most. Unfortunately people don't have their personality written on them, even ( Read more... )

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I guess you could say I am like any other normal diligent teenager. I have good grades in school, am taking AP classes in high school, and I have a bunch of nice friends. I am chubby though. I cant lose this stupid fat. When I become really determined I end up failing and binging. I think I lose more weight when I don't think about it. Only problem ( Read more... )