what goes around, comes back to kick you in the ass.

[fashionbuddha]

why do i feel i like i m losing in the game of karma? i think i m a relatively good person but my life has nothing going for me, i work at two restaurant jobs, and i hate both of them. i m 20 years old and i haven't even got my life started the way i want it to. maybe its something i did, or the choices i made that canceled out everything else

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[brighteyed_brie]

ah, honey i loves ya like some mmm hmmm. take care of your bod and don't get down ok? shit's been going on for me a bit... i should give you a call tonight.
loves

[lowe_zone]

your not alone in feeling like that. I'm 20 and my life feels like it's been going the wrong way for a while. In fact I had my own business for 2 yeas and never made a dime. I had to close down just like last week. I've been a factory job for 2 years now on 2nd shift. It sucks big time. And you know what i'm a straight and I go to chruch all the time. So it's not because of all those choices you've made. You just gota wade it through and hope for the best. i'm going to try another business here soon I think i'm not sure. But hey as long as sooner or later I get a job doing what I like then i'll be happy. well that's a big comment. Mike

[fashionbuddha]

well i live with my parents, i m just so tired of living two lives. they think i go to church every sunday, i Know they suspect my sexual preference, i want to tell them but they won't ever understand if their life depended on it. i do concider myself as a christian, but not a mormon. my brothers and sisters know i smoke, and i was never worried. i think deep down inside i was ready to take on any consequences for the result of feeling comfortable in my own skin in front of my family. i have been feeling down only because of my family, all the negativity thats been thrown at me, i try to block most of it, but you can't have your guard up at ALL times and that pierce right through me when i feel vulnerable. i also m soo ready for a relationship, just so i can feel secure and stable... but i don't know how, and i just contradict myself. wheres prozac when you need it?

[limemeow]

i feel the same luv, but i don't have to live two lives nymore now tha my fam knows everything. it's nice, still kinda disconcerting, but nice to not have to pretend anymore.

[fashionbuddha]

i wish i could say that, i really wish!