Gram spent 5 hours on a ventelator today after surgery. She is now breathing on her own and awake however she is not out of the woods yet. I have had a series of very bad days and am channeling it into house cleaning and organizing. My friends have been amazingly supportive and I am grateful for them. I wish I had insurance cuz I am really ( Read more... )

grandma is 83. She has chronic refractory anemia (a pre-leukemic condition) and pulmonary fibrosis from 40+ years of chemical exposure from the factory she worked in. I cant tell you where cuz there's a lawsuit involved but think of her next time you burn a duraflame log). Gram is getting gallbladder surgery tomorrow and I gotta be honest, I ( Read more... )

I'm hoping that my lack of control over any part of my life right now will manifest into an eating disorder. If I have to be miserable, at least I can be thinner right?

I am about to begin baking for the wedding. 100 red velvet cupcakes at the request of the bride and a chocolate stout sheet cake for stacy, who deserves it cuz shes bringing a pig to the wedding.

Hurry and get here

I want to scream. My life is chaos. I cant find the start line

I really need a job. seriously, I have applied everywhere in the last 3 months and nothing. I've even recently applied at Starbucks, Target and Toys R Us, cuz dammit, money is money.
I'm too old to be a dancer. What the hell am I going to do?

but I don't know where to begin, and wonder if its more respectful to wait until shes gone before I begin ( Read more... )

I filed my taxes and was able to finally process my FAFSA application. Turns out by CA standards I'm like 5 weeks late... at least I think. I'm not really understanding the process, despite hours and hours of reading the FAQ. I have all these questions and no real answers. It's both frustrating and frightening. I'm trying to push past the fear ( Read more... )

Today I am wondering if relationships are even worth the journey. If my heart broke when I was single I was the only one to blame.

oh and Cherry, took your breakup advice of candy, masturbation, thrifting and journaling.... I am pretty sure I have developed both carpel tunnel and a yeast infection thank you very much.