it's the same thing again, like i knew it might be. hoped against it, naturally, but i knew because it's always the same. just exactly. i take it, i do nothing. i walk to the window and watch the rain. what changes are the good things; every fucked up thing stays the same ( Read more... )

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Seems when I check my Friends feed here on LJ every night there are only 15-20 entries. Are there any journals you think I'd like or that you really enjoy reading? I'm hungry for more.

love you
xo

“Go after her. Fuck, don’t sit there and wait for her to call, go after her because that’s what you should do if you love someone, don’t wait for them to give you a sign cause it might never come. Don’t let people happen to you, don’t let me happen to you, or her, she’s not a fucking television show or tornado ( Read more... )

Maggie had a heart attack in my arms. It was violent - she yowled, spasmed, stiffened, her bowels emptied. Her body went limp. Her heart stopped ( Read more... )

my mother gave me the money for maggie's vet bills, for the cremation expenses. but she said she'd only give it to me if I promised I would never get another cat.

Since mama's got medical bills to pay, now would be the time to order that self portrait or pet portrait or portrait of your beloved ~ customs can be purchased at my Etsy shop ( Read more... )

That summer I did not go crazy

but I wore

very close

very close

to the bone.

- Dorothy Allison, “To the Bone“

is it still possible to post photos in entries on LJ? I'm not having any luck hitting the "insert image" link.

wassup?

I haven't been reading books. Neglecting them why? Out of sadness somehow, and boredom, busy-ness fatique lack of interest and these goddamned annoying tumors pressing against the back of my right eye.

But the new Auster arrived, Winter Journal. And this book is giving me something that I need, that I always need but have somehow been living ( Read more... )