I think way too much about everything. It doesn't matter what the issue is, I can't seem to switch my brain off when I want to. I saw a firework show last night in Dennison with my roommate. The show was fantastic, but at one point I thought to myself "I am lucky. I have a freedom in this world I've never thought about." The repeated explosion in ( Read more... )

As much as I would like to slap a bitch, I keep having to tell myself she had nothing to do with it. Nothing.
Yeah. Right. Whatever.
You continually emerge into my life reminding me of how hateful I can be. I don't think I've ever felt so much anger in my entire life. You-you bring something out in me that is so hideously repugnant. I thought I was ( Read more... )

I don't want to utter your name.
I don't want to breathe anything about you.
I'd rather bleed than live next to you.
You don't know the Hate, Anger, Remorse, Unforgiving shit that you called love.
I hate you. I've told you before, I'll tell you again.
Do you remember the day you told me I was the love of your life?
Will you say it to her face again?
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She's always there. Physically or not, the essence of her is always lingering. I don't know if I made a mistake or not, so I guess I'll learn from whatever I take away from that one hour we had today ( Read more... )

It was a stormy night, you know the kind where the lightnin' strike
And I was hangin' out with some my yatzhee friends
ooh wee ooh wee ooh wee
The night was long, the night went on, people coolin' out until the
break of dawn
Incense was burnin' so I'm feelin' right, aight
See I picks my friends like I pick my fruit
My Ganny told me that when I was ( Read more... )

Today I went to Wal-Mart, bought myself a beautiful smelling candle and a chair for my desk. It amazed me how something so simple made me feel so much better, not only about myself but about everything. I miss my room in Amarillo. I used to get home some nights, light my candles, and just lay in my bed. There's something about the flicker of a ( Read more... )

The time has come for me to say goodbye to the world that I know, that I did know. I'm moving forward, not at great speed, but at my own pace wich I'm not going to complain. My time isn't going to be wasted, so please watch out. I can grow now. I don't have to worry now. I can be free now. But what's with all the tears? My love has been lost since ( Read more... )

The world rips me apart more than a break up does. I want to poor my energy into saving this country, this world, our humanity from the corruption that overrides the pain, anger, and distaste the world leaves in my mouth. The law, who cares about the law? It keeps us in these tiny,, incolsed, suffocating boxes leaving no room to make a single move ( Read more... )

I've been sitting at my computer for the last hour, hour and a half looking through past journals, new journals, and reminiscing about high school. Talk about needing a cigarette about now, whoo. I never took the time to really focus on me, my feelings, thoughts, opinions, beliefs, and all until this semester. I never took the time to actually ( Read more... )

But when the time comes around and someone challenges me, I will speak up ( Read more... )