the best thing in my life.. im dying inside right now.. i just.. it wouldnt hurt so bad if i knew he didnt feel the same way.. we're supposed to be together.. we love each other.. on some level.. we do.. i know it.. i feel it..

to just shoot me in the face before cutting out my heart?

thank you.. for coming back to the car.. and showing me.. just.. thank you.. for tonight.. ill show you too.. you'll see.. ill do good.

i have been informed by a friend of mine at work.. that i should let go of the situation.. not get so worked up over everything. and ya know what? she's right. i need to let go.. and if things end up goin my way then ok. great. if not.. then fine. there are things thta everyone has to do.. and if Jason is something you have to do then fine. i ( Read more... )

what i said before.. its true.. but i feel like im fucking dying inside.. i feel like i took a dull spoon and carved out my insides.. and threw them into a shredder.. im at work and i cant cry so i wont.. but i feel inside ( Read more... )

My world turned upside down last night. Like seriously.. full 180. We kissed.. and i saw fireworks.. yes honestly in the last while i have kissed a few people... mostly while drunk.. but there was never the BOOM! followed by a flash of light.. that i experienced last night ( Read more... )

Razafrahjsnxnnoisndkamasdvnbvbjan!!!! ummm... who wouldve seen tonight coming? wow.

my mom just yelled at me that i can be stupid and that im ignorant for refusing to think my little brother will be beat up when he's walking home from school tomorrow due to Tookie Williams riots... wtf!

so here is a pic of me as Mark from RENT. = )


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