18.

[fatal_requiem]

[WEDNESDAY | LATE NIGHT]

I'm trying to bare this place because of her. She wanted me to come home, and I did. But...

All it's been is frustrating.

Comments

Private to Shinjiro

[kirijou]

In normal circumstances I wouldn’t have thought to make this comment to you because I know that there’s nothing I could say to change your mind. To you, I’m simply not someone with that ability, but....seeing him like this....I just...had to try....for his sake...

Please Shinjiro...don’t leave...even if you don’t believe that I care about you, at least believe that he cares. Akihiko...he...needs you, and I know that the bond between the two of you isn’t something I can replace. He has never turned against you...he’s still the friend you grew up with...and if I’m the reason for this disagreement.... then I’ll...do whatever I can to fix it; whatever I can to earn your approval...your forgiveness...just....please don’t leave him like this.

Private

[fatal_requiem]

You're right, nothing is going to change my mind about this. But let me tell you something.

Feelings are something easily replaced. The same as memories. He's replaced my feelings with yours and memories of him and I with him and you.

And you know what?

I'm fine with that.

Me leaving doesn't totally have to do anything about him or you and your... nevermind. The point is that I'm sticking to my word. He may not think of me, but I do of him. So I'll respect the words I gave him a long time ago.

Approval? Forgiveness? You're looking at the wrong person for things like this? Of course, I should put his feelings before my own and that's why I shouldn't leave. Heh... heh....

This exactly what I mean. How I feel does not matter [mainly illegible]

Private

[kirijou]

No, you're wrong, neither feelings nor memories are something that can easily be replaced...we wouldn't be having this conversation, if they were.

You appear so certain that he doesn't think of you, yet why would he be in sorrow now if he doesn't?

If I'm looking at the wrong person, then who should I be looking at to make this right? What could I do to convince you to at least give him a chance to correct whatever that...'awkwardness' you were talking about is? You said I had something you needed, well, now you have something I need, and that's the power to prevent him from experiencing the pain he's sure to feel when you leave.

I know it is pointless to try and convince you of anything, much less ask you to believe that in a way, I think I could understand that all these recent happenings might be causing you to think that you're unwanted or unneeded, but know this...you're still a comrade I care about, and as far as I'm concerned, you are wanted here. And I don't think I have to tell you again that he needs you as well. Even

Private

[fatal_requiem]

Then give him back.