I haven't used any diet drugs all year, for probably 4 months. What a waste of money that BS is. I'm also leaving most of the ed comms I'm in, so much of the conversations there are vapid wannabees looking for validation. It's the same questions over and over: Can I lose 80 pounds in 2 weeks? I need tips on how to starve myself! I ate a grape today ( Read more... )

I've done really well so far this year, although I can't tell if it's made any difference. A rule I made for myself (not one of my resolutions though) was that I wasn't going to step on the scale every day. Only twice a month - the 15th and last day. I step on the scale on Sunday, and I really hope I see some improvement. A couple of resolutions I ( Read more... )

Hmmm. A few weeks ago I gave blood, and as I was resting afterwards drinking my cranberry juice and nibbling on my snack this helper woman comes over and says to me out of the blue "You look just like that actress on the Practice ( Read more... )

12/13: 248.50
12/12: 248.50
12/11: 250.00

12/10: 250
12/09: 250
12/08: 250
12/07: 247.5

I just got back from marshall fields, looking for both a lightweight jacket (in the currently trendy riding cut style that's everywhere) and a winter coat, but came away empty handed. Apparently department stores and fashion designers think anyone above size XL don't deserve to be warm - maybe hoping all the fatties will freeze to death so as not ( Read more... )

In April I requested Wasted from my library and my turn in line finally arrived yesterday. I hear so much about it in ED forums, it seemed to be revered as nearly holy scripture. I began reading it this morning on my bus commute to work, and I understand why. It's very difficult to write any type of memoir or book on the subject of anorexia and ( Read more... )

I've been trying to work out, but there's a creepy guy at my apartment's fitness center (if you can call a small room with 1 tredmill, a broken exercise bike and a couple free weights a fitness center). Every single time I go there he shows up, I think he's obsessed with running. I get there first and already on the tredmill, so he pouts in the ( Read more... )

Every time I start a post I give up and delete after a few sentences. Eh. I haven't been to the gym in 2 weeks and haven't stepped on the scale in longer. I feel immense, but what's different ( Read more... )

Wow, I'm a little impressed. 3.5 pounds since Sunday. I forgot my dp this morning though, I'm kicking myself over it. I walked down to Walgreens to buy a new bottle but they weren't open.