I've decided to get a new journal ( Read more... )

It has been quite some time since I have posted here, though I have actually been checking-in once and awhile to see how everyone else is doing. It doesn’t surprise me that everyone seems to be drifting away from LJ. We can’t help it, we all actually have busy lives now, haha. But yea, I think I might start using LJ again, though it has seriously ( Read more... )

Here’s a summary of what was missed:
A. I’m going back to school at Roanoke in the fall. I’ll have 2 jobs:

1. Just for 2 weeks I will get training and then lead a group of freshman around the campus etc for their orientation.
2. For the rest of the year I will work a couple hours a week, promoting service projects and recruiting ( Read more... )

I cannot wait for the morning that I wake up and don’t think about Phil.
I cannot wait for the afternoon that passes without a thought of Phil.
I cannot wait for the night where I can lay down to sleep and not think about Phil.
I cannot wait for the moment when I realize that the previous day was completely free of thoughts of him.
Then I will know ( Read more... )

Just for the record:

Phil broke up with me today, making the count only: 3 months and 19 days.

And I just thought I was getting back on my feet…
Really sudden, and apparently it's one of those "I like you, but not enough" ordeals...
So now he walks away and I hold myself together until this passes...
Heh, I mean facebook makes everything official, ( Read more... )

So… mom just got out of surgery and may be going back into surgery again.

Basically she was swimming one night, but stopped because her arm was killing her. The next morning her arm had turned blue and so she went to the hospital to check it out. Turns out she had some serious blood clots near her collar bone and that damage had been done to ( Read more... )

So I've basically come to the conclusion that this blog is useless.
I've also realized that NY will never be the same for me.
There is no one left that I can call a best friend anymore, from any state, in any place.

Also, as my memory fades [I've often explained the 2yr max issue], NY is leaving me for good. All the people I knew and trusted, ( Read more... )

Oh yea, random bit of information. Last weekend, I had my first ‘drink’.

I know that may sound kinda silly, but I was straight edge for the longest while. Apparently, I am now ok with getting tipsy. And I mean comparatively getting tipsy is no where close to getting roaring drunk, so I guess its ok. But at the same time I think of the whole ‘you ( Read more... )

Phil has offered for me to stay at his house for a week over break. If his parents say yes, should I go? I mean they have only met me once and they don’t remember it and it may be awkward, but I think it would be fun. At the same time that puts a lot of pressure on me to be an acceptable gf, haha. Should I go?

It appears that my naive dream of going to NY for a month failed miserably, followed by a hopeful push to make it up for at least week.

I guess this year was just too busy, I hate to say it but I don't think I will be making an appearance in NY this year.