Ugh I've been in such a fog for the last couple of weeks. I'm not sure if it's the job or my overall mind but I feel like I've been out of commission or just not there for a while now. It seems like all I do now is work or sleep...even on my days off I sleep so late that by the time I'm ready to do anything its already 8 o'clock. that could just be ( Read more... )

Ughhh tense right now. Have to walk on glass(metaphorically, literally last night) while I'm at work now. My OM had to go ahead and place the seeds of self doubt(which I was already warned about from another employee...) in me. She said my biggest problem was her thinking I'm not able to do my job no matter the case(which goes back to me for ( Read more... )

The ticket of Barnum and Bailey just got my vote because they are the only ones qualified to run this fucking circus in November ( Read more... )

Ah as much as I may complain about it I'm never truly happy unless I'm at work. Sure I have my bad days but it seems like I'm always on such a high when I'm here. I sit at home and mope on my days off and lately I've been nipping those feelings in the butt with some activity so I think I'm starting to get a grip on things. If I can finally get ( Read more... )

Just posted an entry and can't think of anything else to do now. SLOW night at work.

Ahhhh...not much going on. Actually saw just about EVERYONE I know since last Friday. It's cool seeing how drastically things have changed and how little it even matters to me anymore. The friends I've lost weren't great people to begin with so no biggie IMO. Fake people are still fake, people still keep asking the same retarded fucking questions. ( Read more... )

Why is it some days you just can't win. All it takes is just one phone call ( Read more... )

Two fucking awful titrations in two nights. WTF. I really wish it wasn't stressing me out. Again I've done everything I can do and nothing works...again.... although looking back on it last night wasn't too bad. Increase the pressure leak gets higher and excessive but no change. Switch to BiPAP, events and high as fuck leak. Doesn't help that the ( Read more... )

I really hate trying to do everything in my power, and I mean everything to help someone out and nothing seems to work. Not fully understanding the concept doesn't help much either. Its been happening like this on and off all night...pretty much at my wits end. Almost 5a ( Read more... )

If one more person asks me about the Olympics instead of what's really going on in the world this week ( Read more... )