I should just give up on trying to get a job. I have interviewed for mmm  i think 5-6 jobs and havent gotten one of them . Its cause i "don't meet there needs and there are better candiates to fill the postions" meaning= I am too stupid and suck at life. so while my current home life is SUCKING ass because according to my stepdad I am worthless and ( Read more... )

I know noone actually reads these things I just need to get shit off my chest and the one person i want to talk to about it is the reason why all of this has come to be. He has always been the reason of my happiness and is now the reason for my pain and sorrow.  Matt and I are on a "break". so that means what.. that we are not currently talking or ( Read more... )

Last night I had a very long convo with "T" who apparently has a great interest in me. Lately i feel as if i just want to be my own person and to be free. I dont feel free. T talked about what it would mean if we got into  relationship NOTE: this is not what i want at all. I am perfectly happy with matt and told T as such. Well T wants me to visit ( Read more... )

I realized today that my hair is long.

There are certain things people should tell you..

for example today i walked around for quite some time with my shirt inside out .. no one said anything.

another example right now on tv i'm watching the nanny. She is wearing a suit that looks like a brick wall.. someone should have told her that it looks aweful.

Every time you open your mouth stupid comes out -- that was the first thing i said to matt yestarday. I've come to realize that i am a funny girl ( Read more... )

SO i'm home nowand have been for about 1.5 days after 7 hours in the car trying to get home. You may have seen the 2 bus accident that held up traffic for 3 hours and almost killed my car on the news. I literally sat in the same 100 feet of highway for 3 hours with my gas light on the whole time with the A/C off in 97 degree weather in pants. ( Read more... )

After the numerous phone calls and such let me explain what the previous comment meant and update everyone on the short commings of my life as of now ( Read more... )

drunk driving was not a good idea

so today is my birthday... and only 4 people wished me happy birthday ( including my parents). I am lame!