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lately...
so, lately I have been around kaitlin a lot and I still feel the same way as I did in my last post.... so, now I am just gonna let her stay around for as long as she chooses to..... I thought about it a lot over the last week and realized that it sounds kind of mean but truth is I just don't want to have to deal with it so I am just letting things ( Read more... ) -
funny how things change....
So, I finally got home after a LONG weekend in pleasanton... took kaitlin with me to see how things would go with her and realized a lot this weekend. I dunno if I am ready for a relationship, and if I am don't think its going to be with kaitlin.... I realized this on Friday when kaitlin threw a fit for like the tenth time@ the old me would have ( Read more... ) -
how odd...
things have come up recently that have just blown my mind. I can't really explain but let's just say that for the first time in my life, I met a woman that didn't care about having sex with me but likes me for me. its so different that I dunno how to feel. she wants to but I said no..... she was fine with that. I told her it might be a year or more ( Read more... ) -
hella long time
well, i found almost all of my old LJ's and gained access back into them. i read alot of my posts from back then and was amazed at how blind, stupid and oblivious to reality i was. there were very few things that i looked back on and still had somewhat the same thoughts on. one of the ones i was the most amazed about what how much my idea of love ( Read more... ) -
married!!!!!!!!
well, thought you all should know i am a happily married man... i am a stepfather to two gorgeous girls and have never been happier in my life... kori(my wife), Dakota(my two year old) and Neveah(my 6 month old) have become my life... There is nothing more i could have wanted... i will update more when i get my computer back from my place... laterz ( Read more... ) -
NEW CAR!!!!!!!
i just bought my first new car... it's a scion xa... silver.... hella fuckin sweet..... it's like an enclosed golf-cart with a hell of a lot more power.. 'm ust really amped about picking it up tomorrow... as soon as i get pics u on myspace... i'll post the web-page. -
all i want....
everyone around me keeps asking me what i want for christmas... i told my parents to get the blower for my car... they did... it's in my backseat... as for everyone else... there isn't much you all can give me... i pretty much buy what i want... if i can't buy it because i don't have the money, i must not need it bad enough... my car is my number ( Read more... ) -
lost without losing myself.....
been a while since i've updated.. my party went well... i got totally plastered... it was hilarious... anyways.... now for why i'm updating... like normal, it's about a girl... this time i'm lost as to how to get to this girl... she's different.. but not in the same different that i normally go off about... she has this way about her... it's like ( Read more... ) -
regarding last post...
regarding my last post.. i take back what i said about only one person caring... three people cared enough to talk to me about it before that post... shorty, robin and justin.... the people i thought were close friends besides these three.... likie tammy and ryan.... they obviously didn't give enough to even ask about the last post... they don't ( Read more... ) -
true friends.....
i'm going to be 21 on sunday and i've just now realized who my friends are..... there is only one person in california who gives a shit about me.... so, THE REST OF YOU CAN ALL GO TO HELL... you have all said your my friends... that was bullshit.... when it came down to it.... i always allowed things to be about all of you.... the one time i've ( Read more... )