I had a dream a few days ago that I had a baby. The strange thing was that I did not know who the father was and did not care; I was only worried about the fact that my milk had not come in. Which kinda bothers me that I was not concerned about the father...and then last night I dreamt that I had drastically miscalculated the percentage I would get ( Read more... )

For about the last week and a half I have felt like utter crap. And I was feeling better, but then I had to turn on my window unit and that made it about ten times worse. So, I've been dealing with a sinus headache for the last week that is dramatically worsened by my horrendous cough that sounds like I should be expelling my lungs, or at the very ( Read more... )

Is right now and it's ridiculously hot. Thank you global warming. I will probably sweat my ass off Halloween night in U-city because of this. Or it will freeze off. No happy medium, I swear. Well, last week was just right, a nice, cool 65, but then it rained and got hot again. I was already to pull out my jacket and light sweaters, out away the ac ( Read more... )

So, it's been a long time since my last update. I decided to get my Master's in Organizational Psychology and Development. And I have an amazing boyfriend. I think he had been in the hospital or was just getting out the last time I wrote anything. And I moved out ( Read more... )

I feel like I'm stuck in the same spot. I had a purpose when I was at school. I had something to do. A lot to do. I had friends and roommates and things to occupy my time with. Now, not so much. I mean, I have a job, but it's killing me in gas, I want to move out, get a new car and go back to school ( Read more... )

Things were going so well. And I guess they still are minus the stabbiness. He surprised me with flowers on Thurs after work just because he hadn't gotten me any yet. Then he did it again on Mon because we hadn't seen each other all weekend and he knew I hadn't exactly enjoyed my weekend. Plus, he wasn't discouraged when my dad called the police on ( Read more... )

Now, usually the upside takes so long to happen I never associate it with the less than pleasant event that happened. But, I am quite happy now. After a dreadful break up I went on an awful date with a guy I had figured wouldn't be that great anyway, but then when I actually met him it was worse ( Read more... )

Because it couldn't have been more true. He decided that it was better to get back with his ex, which I totally should have seen coming, as I said last week that it wasn't going to be worth it, but I must have quickly dismissed that. I need to focus more on my own thoughts and what I want. It just sucks because I've been to so many events where I ( Read more... )

So, I haven't been honest with myself. I know what I want and I shouldn't compromise it. I need to find it and not settle. I know too many people who have. I think I've tricked myself into believing that I love him because it's easy and not because I do. I use the excuse that I'm drawn to him because I don't want to believe it's really about me ( Read more... )

And apparently I suffocate. Which could be true, or perhaps we have different expectations, which I suspect is more what the problem is ( Read more... )