as i sit here waiting for the ibuprofen to take effect and relieve me of this temple pain, i can't help but wonder if anyone else is up at this time and what they are doing. it can't be anything good seeing as it is disgustingly early on a monday morning ( Read more... )

so i went out to 15th street with a(boy) tonight and have an interesting time. there's only so much intellectual conversation i can have before fat ladies eating fried chicken dipped in cake frosting turns in to THE funniest thing i've ever heard. so we chatted, drinked, moved out of the bar area to listen to some girl sing. then i got bored and ( Read more... )

So I think I've solved my world's biggest mystery... Why is it that my mood randomly changes from being happy and free to morose and melancholic? Aside from the obvious answer of being bi-polar, I think it has to do with procrastination and my observance of. Right now I've got a manual that I still haven't finished that is a month past due. I'm ( Read more... )

So in an effort to make myself feel better about how my day at work is going, I think I've decided to chair a Race for the Cure team here at work. The idea will be proposed at our CARE Rally on thursday if I can get the information to talk about it in time, and then I'll have between then and August 17th to get people together and have a basic ( Read more... )

I don't think that I can adequately express myself to the fullest effect that, indeed I hate this job.

At times.

Much like at this very moment.

though i have been at adequate speed to progress through life, accelerating at times but always finding the comfortable rate, again i find myself rushing in too fast. this time there are too many barriers, obstacles, mostly my own guilt that is preventing me from feeling stable ( Read more... )

i don't know what to say but i needed to get it down somewhere. i feel sick for feeling anything so strongly only to learn that the basis for such an endeavor was founded on lies. unbeknownst to me this was looming in the past, looking back i can't help but feel used. i feel dirty. disgusting. i want to vomit. i want to cry my eyes out. i ( Read more... )

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So no Focus. I went out to the dealership but I just couldn't be caught with the offer. No sweat.

With my loan payoff plan, it just wouldn't factor in and I still really want to get my loans paid off soon.

Besides, I loved the Focus but I think when I'm ready I'll get a little bit more of a grown up car.

Today must have been the worst day for sleeping. If it wasn't my phone vibrating off the nightstand it was my father using his portable sander on the back patio. Starting at 8 this morning. So I can say that I had an hour of good sleep and then it's been shit since then. Thank God for Tylenol with codine. Fuck this working graveyard shit too ( Read more... )