been  nightmare-ing lately.  people with waxy tall bodies following me around in the shadows.  waking up all choked up and shit.  i've employed the whiskey cure for dreaming.  it works well too. 

The downward decent in nihilism has collided with an upswing of ennui ( Read more... )

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winter came on the heels of something
then flu season
followed by flu season
followed by sinus season.

i've got to get the bitterness out of my heart
long walks help like tumblers of ice with other stuff
losing lost my sense of smell
and sight is dim
hearing impaired
i've got all my limbs though
bottom foots numb.

the sounds i hear occur in my ears and not somewhere else. the vibrations of inner ear things sending signals to the brain that is trained to think there is a separate place from the brain.  fine i get it.  i take back my former statements.  four days of sweating through the sheets, purging the body of viral sickness has lent me a momentary fresh ( Read more... )

what is there to know that can be known?

i'm a terrible buddhist... the praradox of enlightenment is terribly terrible.

you know the bowl water and the safety pin lingering at the bottom of the bowl. 

failing liver function ( Read more... )

tonight i sleep and i don't
empting my pockets onto drawer
bits of papers matches keys change
spill over onto the floor
no clues
for where or why
my shoes scattered
bed sheets pulled back
will stay like this
in the light
or in the dark

the tiny world is shrinking ( Read more... )

tiny black cat
and i miss u