my mind has become so full of tar and smog. i can’t form a coherent thought once her name is mentioned. that name sends disgusting shameful thoughts through my body. suddenly every insecurity becomes a glowing reminder and each one brighter than the rest. i’m a girl filled and molded into the shape of tragedy. i’m watching it all crumble before me ( Read more... )

i’m beginning to think my reality is nothing more than fiction. because how else could someone like you love me. you love me as easy as breathing. it’s terrifying yet the most addictive thing i’ve felt. i think i could od on this love if you’d let me. i’d steal all of it until my body gives out. if that was the way my body expires i don’t think i’d ( Read more... )

keep my name out of your disgusting mouth. i refuse to be associated with the trash you call your words. everything you spit out is rancid garbage. every sickening thing you spew is nothing but a projection. you’re insecure and we can all see. you are so hurt by everything that goes bump in the night you take it out on others. you are no man. you’ ( Read more... )

everything ends. but i never expected you’d be gone like this. months of soul cleansing devotion to end in silence and mourning. yet i hope to never met you again. i hope our paths never cross down the line. souls once intertwined now the ties are cut. so many unspoken truths and vows go forgotten with time. yet i’ll remember ever word and secret, ( Read more... )

your heart was made to be ripped out of your chest. luck for you all i know is claws and teeth. the only way i can love is with violence. i’m a collection of all my past mistakes and all people i’ve loved. can you still love this frankensteined human? i’m living dead and my heart aches to know how you feel. i crave to touch your inner most soul. i ( Read more... )

shame is a disease. i feel it crawling under my skin and flooding my veins. why do i feel shame when i’m around people? it’s a sickness that no matter where i am it finds a way back to me. every scar on my skin is an attempt to fix the infection i am. there is no sympathy left in this world for me. there is no compassion or pity left for someone ( Read more... )

i will give you everything a human is worth.i’ll pull down the stars for you. but what would you say when they run out? i think once the stars aren’t enough i’ll peel back my skin and give my bones. maybe next my organs. keep my heart in a jar and watch it twitch and shake. poke and prod, see how it works. there is a solar system in your eyes, ( Read more... )

i haven’t been seen before. i’m drafted in the back in your mind and prayed to be seen as real. i’m an illusion that can’t come to exist yet. i’m an idea that can’t be found. i feel as though you breathed life into me. you made this doll into the living . i don’t think i’ve ever existed before you. once you walked into my world you made color ( Read more... )

falling out of love is hard, especially when it’s with something as trivial as living. waking up has long lost its charm. the basic things i fought so hard to love have turned stale. sometimes i’ll think about how much i’ve given in the pursuit of happiness. and how despite all of that i’m still alone. i’ve done nothing but fight since i learned ( Read more... )

i’m getting that feeling in my chest again. the one that screams of never making it to 20. the one that reminds me i’ll never be more than this. that people like me can’t get better. i crave so much yet am disgusted by those same wants. i’ve tried to reason with this part of my life. tried to reason with the sadness. i’ve tried the diets and the ( Read more... )