there is nothing casual about me. loving me has never been casual. i need my lover to rip our his own chest for me. serve your heart to me on the shiniest gold platter this earth has to offer. i need my lover to give me their everything and take my all. i can’t do casual. i can’t do being half loved. i can’t handle the pain of not having your all. ( Read more... )

i love you. i love the way you make my skin feel like it’s being peeled off. i am a side character in your life, a forgettable background actor. i’m sex when you want it and a therapist when you need it. a bitch when you’re mad and your girlfriend when you feel like it. i am being stretched so thin holes are forming. i’m trying to become everything ( Read more... )

you haven’t once loved me. i see that now, i’ve been a place holder since you laid eyes on me. i will always just be a warm body and a loud voice to fill the room. you love me once it’s convenient for your liking. for someone so in love with me you can’t seem to go a day without hating me. you yell awful sickening words. you should be embarrassed. ( Read more... )

i am becoming overwhelmingly dizzy with thoughts. they circle so fast i become nauseous. why was i put onto this earth if not as a gift. was i brought to life as a blessing or a curse. maybe i was gods gift, sent to judge the sinner. or maybe i was the sinned before i even took my first breath. was i meant to be a divine being or an unholy one. i’ ( Read more... )

there has been a lack of art in my life. my pain is no longer poetic but it’s just pain again. my loneliness can’t be described with words and phrases but instead by lack of words. not writing has been the best way to describe it. a total lack of everything that makes me feel. even if i cling to my one passion left what’s new. what could i say that ( Read more... )

i found your grave. you died 3 years ago on a sunny day. you were a brother, a son, a soon to be lover. so with my bare hands ive dug you up and sewed you back together. your disgusting skin already too far gone in places so i made due. even when i opened your eyes and breathed life into you still refused to look into mine. does my living body make ( Read more... )

oh how i’d love to be your manic pixie dream. let me show you music you’ve never heard and show you ways to live you couldn’t fathom before me. let me give you reason to wake up in the morning. let me fix you and change your life. but then you have to leave me. it’s a tale as old as time. the girl with the bright pink hair and odd personality will ( Read more... )

will you give me a kiss for a poem? now what if the poem wasn’t what you wanted, what if this poem was me knowing. what if this poem was filled with hate and bitterness? would i still get a kiss? i know you couldn’t love me if you tried. i know you’ll love no one. i’ve tried to reason with this side of you, make sense of why you’re like this. but i ( Read more... )

i have such bitter sweetness with remembering. oh i remember you smell and how much you saved me. but then i remember your touch. i remember the disgusting feelings you left me with. for weeks trying to find a way out and an explanation. i couldn’t figure out the word for it for a long time. there is no way that could’ve ever happened to me. i’m ( Read more... )

i don’t know how much longer i can handle the nagging in my head. the one that reels and demands sorrow. they will leave me and there is nothing i can do. disgusting words from everyone who’s laid eyes on me. i don’t think i’ll ever understand why. i don’t think i’ll ever be loved or enjoyed without it being a chore. i am losing my worth in this ( Read more... )