for anyone who cares i've decided to go to Central in the fall. Like definately for sure, i just declined my admission to both State and Northern Arizona. i'm excited. cant wait to get out of here.

soooo yesterday was purty good. early release, got a 100% on my AP Calc quiz (but only cuz it was graded on the AP test scale, but who cares?) Had a good lunch at red lobster w/ great friends ( Read more... )

*beats head repeatly against nearest wall*
maybe just maybe if i kill enough brain cells

ill be happier

does anyone else out there feel that they have to pretend to be happier than u r to avoid silly questions from silly people?? well i do. so yea idk it just seems odd to me that one should blunt ones own emotion to avoid such things. Im just now realizing all this as i've actually felt pretty happy today and realized the kinds of things i say even ( Read more... )

well just when u think uve decided something, to do something proactive, u get smacked in the face again ( Read more... )

so i was officially blown off again. this screwed me up for a day or so. i was more mad at myself for being so damn stupid and gullible. but one must take the bad w/ the good i spose. and from this disaster (because yes it does rank as a disaster to me. Anything that can destroy my self-confidence like that is.) did come some good. i discovered who ( Read more... )

soo i'm pretty tired of instability in my life. i'm tired of not knowing whats going on in my life. seein as im the one livin it, it seems i should be the first to know. i think my biggest issue is that i seem to be going in freakin circles. people i thought i'd never see or even talk to again keep popping back up. i mean thats not a bad thing, i ( Read more... )

sooo i'm very awake which isn't good cuz i have my hardest exam first thing tomorrow morning. gag me. AP Calc is like the most useless class ever. i guess my only consolation is these are pretty much the last exams i'll have to take in high school. i'm still stuck here tho. I think i've decided on Central for school next year pending my acceptance ( Read more... )

sooo as most of u kno, i've like the same guy for like.. the past year and while he claims to like me as well, we've never gotten together. So what exactly is a girl to do? I dont want to sit around and wait on something thats not going to happen, especially when an interesting new prospect has presented itself. At the same time i dont wanna pass ( Read more... )

ok so i'm done w/ the whole sick thing
i've done it waaay to much this year
and when im sick i think bout stuff
and that never ever ends well
cuz i realize stuff that i dont really want to.