I feel kinda bad.....having to "abandon" a friend but i had to. I feel bad about it but i had no other choice.....the stakes became way to high and if things went bad i was not willing to pay the price. Like my mom keeps telling me...."ensure your future before anything else" and thats what i had to do.....protect myself and my future....if i lost ( Read more... )

Ahh.....life is so fucking stressful lately. School, lack of sleep, random shit that happens in life. Ah ( Read more... )

Life has been interesting lately......there have been some good things and some bad....but this is life so it is expected that there would be bad things too. Today marks the one week until Adam returns!!!! Yay!!!!! And my tattoo is almost 100% Healed.....so yes....pictures should be posted soon ( Read more... )

Ahhh....stress....ahhhh!!!!!

And Adam is in the field this week so i am not going to get to talk to him....which i understand completely but he is my destressor....if something is wrong all i have to do is hear his voice and everything is all better.

Well.....i spent a good amount of time this weekend making room for Adam in my room and cleaning the apartment.....ugh....and i fixed things that wouldnt work right. I felt nice and handy.....i think i shall try and get into the "i am a college student with early morning classes" mode tonight.....hell...i spent a good part of my day doing work.... ( Read more... )

I am so close....i can almost taste it. But it still hurts so much. I feel stupid for hurting like this. It is not forever and it is almost over but i still cannot get this emptyness inside me to leave. I honestly do think that anyone truely comprehends what he means to me. Plain and simple....he is the love of my life....my soulmate....and being ( Read more... )

Yesterday was my birthday and i treated myself to another tattoo....this one is really sweet ( Read more... )

Last year Madison told me that it was much easier to do school work when living at an apartment and I can honestly say that i did not believe him. But he is right. For some reason it is easier to do my work now. Maybe it is because I can truely focus on my work and I dont have to worry about people always coming by or making noise in the other room ( Read more... )

Ok....i finally got my classes worked out thanks majorly to Madison and Katie. And what happens today? My favorite Professor has a heart attack like 5-19 minutes into the lecture......Be careful.....if my life starts to go right and i like you in one way or anyother you need to watch out....

Have you ever had that feeling of utter lonelyness that leaves you feeling empty....and you dont know if you feel that way because you have been pushing people away, or if they are pushing you away.....or you have grown too far apart ( Read more... )