So Ive been thinking, too much, as usual. Perhaps there is a reason I'm more often than not, alone. Granted, I live in the middle of nowhere, but still. Christmas, hell, the holidays in general really suck. All I do is get depressed, by new years eve Im usually ready to off myself, then I think, well its a new year, lets give it a shot. And then ( Read more... )

Christmas Wishlist ( Read more... )

So here I am, back for who knows how long, probably until I get sick of updating again, or maybe just tonight. I feel disconnected, from the world, and from myself, I hate the holidays, especially this year, I miss everything and everyone, I miss me too. I hate how the only person I wish I could get rid of, is the person Im stuck being. So here it ( Read more... )

ok yall, I got a new journal. I'll add you, if you decide you wanna add me, go ahead, otherwise, good bye.

I watched cards being exchanged about, today. I hate this fuckin holiday, I especially hate knowing shes got her little somebodies..... and Ive got memories. But that is what happens I guess. Difference between being dumped, and doing the dumping, maybe I shoulda done that, Dumped before I got dumped, so It wouldnt have hurt as bad this time ( Read more... )

Happy valentines day everyone, I hope you have that special someone or a friend. To all of you, I wish the best and many more to come, every one of you deserves to have a smile given to you today. To my friends, from yours. Even the ones that hate me. Happy Valentines

Alone again tonight, without someone to love ( Read more... )

Hmmm I wonder what shes got to hide

Someone PLEASE get her out of my life. Im going fucking insane. Can no one see this? FUCKING INSANE! INSANE! ARGHHHHHH IM SO CLOSE TO JUST ENDING MY PAIN. FUCK IT, FUCK HER, FUCK TH-IS adf; gpidhft piuvge;orihg;kljhgbx;cklnb/'l;cknjhmol;

When did the world become such a cold place ( Read more... )