Long time no write huh? For once when in crisis I didnt run to my writing. The last week or so hasnt been that bad but I did have a few days there where I felt like I could throw up my stomach at any given moment. I still have moments like that but for the most part I think Im ok. I know that there are things that I need to be doing, things I ( Read more... )

Man,I have been non stop since like Thursday. For the most part its been good stuff like moving stuff or setting up for my Valentines day thing for Rich. I am just so exausted though. Me and my mom have been fighting pretty much non-stop too. Its hard because we both feel like things are so hard. I mean, I know I could do more, at the same time ( Read more... )

Today has been so nuts. I feel like Ive been running non-stop. Im exausted already. Cant stop now, still have all sorts of stuff to do. I dont think I give myself credit, cause I can do a lot more than I think I can. I really want things to go well tonight. Its my night to do Valentines stuff for Rich. I know its cheezy but I really want it ( Read more... )

Nothing exciting today. I had a good time last night. Rich and I didnt do anything special, just Friday's but I feel like with everyday that goes by we get closer. I love that we arent just boyfriend and girlfriend, but friends too. I finally got him to talk about marriage a little bit. I know people think Im crazy. Its hard being so young ( Read more... )

Today has been really good. Rich is amazing. I mean, I guess he didnt do anything way over the top or anything but humoring me and my stereotypical girlishness was fabulous. He even kept his cool when I went in a store to look at "you know what" rings. Whatta guy. He brought me flowers into school. Im such a sucker for public displays of ( Read more... )

I thought I was going to lose it yesterday morning. The day got better though and I realized things were ok. My mom watched Grey and I spent the majority of the afternoon and evening with Rich. God I love him. We didnt even do anything special, just kicked it, but it seems like that is always exactly what I need. Just someone that loves me not ( Read more... )

The air in this place is starting to feel rancid. Bad karma ya know. Ugly with too much fighting. I dont think I can pretned it doesnt bother me anymore. I cant pretend it doesnt feel like before. Its way to familiar. I see two solutions....I get the hell out, or find a way to numb it. Maybe it will be better when we move. I should chill ( Read more... )

I used to write all the time. I have journals upon journals thrown in a box somewhere. Everyday like clockwork, since I was like, 8. I wrote about everything. There were only a few times in my life that I didn't. Probably because they were times I didnt exactly want to document. My life is so amazing right now but I cant help but feel bored ( Read more... )