thursday night he picked me up from the airport in a big blue mini-van rental (broncobama is sick!) with a heart balloon tied to the passenger door handle. seeing tough old zeb roll up in a blue soccer mom vehicle was definitely one of the most humorous and adorable things i have ever seen. somehow, without asking, he knew daisies were my favorite ( Read more... )

five o'clock am, tuesday morning.. i usually don't pick up those types of phone calls. i usually just let them ring and allow myself to fall back asleep. but this particular morning i picked up, i'm not sure why, but i'm so happy i did. those three words, they changed something about us- they brought us to this new level of comfortableness. i ( Read more... )

if i don't say this now, i will surely break. it's that i'm leaving the one i want to take. forgive the urgency, but hurry up and wait. my heart is starting to separate. so few come and don't go. will you - won't you be the one i always know? when i'm losing my control, and the city spins around, you're the only one who knows how to slow it down. ( Read more... )

design i recently finished for my lady friends at eskell:


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god, i just want to go back ( Read more... )

los angeles was wonderful. i had so much fun! i met so many great people, and got to spend time with someone who has unexpectedly become a very important part of my life. i haven't laughed the way i did out there in a very, very long time. i have never been so happy just driving aimlessly around. when i am with him, the side of me i wish everyone ( Read more... )

this time tomorrow i will be in los angeles.

it's about time!

well, i wrote your name and burnt it
to see the color of the flame
and it burned out the whole spectrum
as if you were everything

mine just burned gold;
a normal flame.
i am not anything.

a clean slate is the best feeling i can think of right now ( Read more... )

i'm so ridiculously sad. i can't sleep. i've been holding it together the past couple of weeks, but really, after this morning i just snapped - i've been crying all day and i feel so silly. so i went back in my calendar, to 2004, in order to just take my mind off of things, and i found this old New Years survey...

( 2008 )