i havent been to portland for probably two months or so..
i should probably take a trip
up to see lauren and that one kid.
yeah

all is lost

ohh yeah i forgot-
im going to mexico in two weeks from friday.
im totally broke but thats ok
ill just dumpster dive on the way down
at least i have a guarenteed ride.

ATTN:
CORNERSTONE.
the family i was hitchin up with
arent going now
im so sad.
:(
i hope someone in oregon is going.
maybe i can hitch a ride?
sniff.
:/
im feeling quite tired on this groogy afternoon.
sigh*

so i got this new dress- well my first actual 'dress'
since i have skirts
i might as well have a dress right?
yeah.
its black and 'spaghetti' strap
and its weird to see me
in this dress
since im so white
and i always wear my
tight black pants
but i kinda like it..
and yeah,
thats it.

easter eggs make me sick.
i painted them all week long
there must have been a hundred of them.
gross.
i miss everyone. :(

so i guess im going to mexico in the first week of may.
what an unexpected surprise.

i have transportation so all i need now is a little cash.
or a good dumpster. mmhmm.

I CANT LOOK BACK

and i cant forget.

just a mess
a bloody fucking mess

----
these ripped up raggs
are soaked in sweat
i wish i could look back.

im tired of trying to make a differance

i want to destroy the differance.

why cant you understand?
i want you to understand
how i feel about you
you would rather stare at
the faces down the hallway

the walls are covered in them
my feelings my emotions my pain

scattered down the hallway tiles
waiting to be mopped up

im just a bloody fucking