In cali after a longish flight. So far i have had a good time. I met all Mr. Driver's (:-)) friends and they are pretty interesting people, i like them. I also met Paul and i have to say he is a cool guy. I really like him. We went on a really nice boat ride, it was a bit cold but fun. Got a little buzzed on all the champagne. Now we are just ( Read more... )

Yesterday i wrote a list of things i want to do or achieve before i die, here is what i have so far. I am hoping to continue to add to it ( Read more... )

Wow i come back from like 3 days away and i find the world turned on its ear. I perferr to saty out of things that really don't concern me though so all i am gonna say is that ahhhh its is almost time for yankee home coming. but hey also on the same day charlie and the chocolate factory comes out the 6th harry potter book does too so woo hoo go ( Read more... )

Wow has it been awhile since i wrote in this. Like 2 months or something. I am well, just over worked, as are we all. Today, as i was taking a shower, i was thinking about college and what i wanted to do. The answer i got was not comforting, i am no longer sure that acting is what i want to do. Maybe its because i haven't done it in a while or ( Read more... )

the feeling that you thought your life was worthless, but it isn't. How does one handle such a reversal of fortune? How does one continue living after already have done the dying. You just have to start fresh. Start over. Find yourself again ( Read more... )

Tired and confused and so not looking forward to this months holiday, i always end up alone doing nothing and feeling digustingly sorry for myself. ehhh fucking commercialism. I also need to find another person to hang with cause i think soon i will be spending a lot of time alone due to the fact that my usual accomplace is going to be detained in ( Read more... )

To love or not to love- that is the dilemma:

Whether ‘tis better for the soul to suffer

The break of heart in likely rejection,

Or to lock feelings in thy mind troubled

And, by neglecting, end them.

To want, to feel

No more-and by not allowing it will cease

The heartache and the thousand days spent

Pondering its truth-

‘tis a blissful ending

( Read more... )

everything is fading away... i am losing it, i am losing the person i care about the most, i am losing it, always have fun, i promised myself that, life isn't worth living if you don't enjoy, how fucking true, life isn't worth living, don't enjoy, losing it, its gone... i'm gone

School needs to go away and die!!!!! Can't wait to leave, mother fucker ( Read more... )

and today went by fast, i don't remember it at all. hmmmm... Now i am aware and my aunt got fired from her job and is freaking out about my other aunt who is trying to kill herself. I honestly wish it was still 3:00pm, hanging with mike and kristin, i wouldn't have to deal with this. Sigh... oh well ssdd