So I totally pulled an all nighter last night, not in the sense that i got only a few hours of sleep, but that I got none at all. I was working hard looked at the clock and it said 6:12 so I just figured heck why go to sleep and only get about 15 minutes and your not even done yet. I hate school so much sometimes that it is ridiculous. I have to ( Read more... )

sometimes...I just sit here and look back at segments of days that have gone by and I wonder what the crap I accomplished. For the most part it is nothing but ya know....thats cause i always find some way to procrastinate. I babysat two little brats all weekend long, and I say the brat thing in all honesty. The girl is just like me when I was ( Read more... )

So christmas tree lighting tonight....and oh my word was I shaking like a leaf. It was so freaking freazing outside I thought I was going to die. Anyways, so I am going home to babysit some brats this weekend, always a blast. I just wish that my life were so much greater then it is right now. You know how you watch so much television and movies ( Read more... )

SO.......Thanksgiving break was amazing. Getting away from school and everything for a breif period of time was amazing. I slept for about 10 hours on wednesday and it felt so dang good. I cooked all day long which was fun since I don't get a big chance here at school. I had some drama with friends later that night and you know it just kinda rolls ( Read more... )

My mother lovingly woke me up at 5:30 this morning and what were the words that i hear, "It snowed and its still snowing." Now those of you who get to experience snow multiple times at your home....probably think I am a lunatic. But since I live in the desert where we normally just get the wind this is a big deal to me. COllEGE SUCKS. I missed last ( Read more... )

I have never wanted anything for my birthday in the past. In fact I rarely get anything really important because lets face it....having your birthday on thanksgiving or around thanksgiving isn't the greatest thing. This year is different because I only have one birthday wish and I truly believe that it can come true. I am not going to say what it ( Read more... )

So I am totally happy in my life. Nothing is wrong, nothing is ever wrong. Friendships don't die, people always care, I am loved by everyone, and I am not depressed or angry about anything.

"How fitting it seems that tears should
dampen the face even of the moon
whose image visits my sleeve
as I sit lost in sad thought."

It makes me happy.

So after a day of hanging out with friends, I went and saw devyn and her play. It was really really good and I was absolutely impressed with the acting. I mean where else can we see devyn as a conservative mother. HAHA Jk I love you girl. I am really happy with some of the friends that I have down here and highly dissapointed in some other ones so ( Read more... )

Why was I ever upset last year? Honestly I think that there has been a cursed placed on me saying that the second I open up to someone they will stab me in the back. Is it too much for people in this world to not be self centered. Just asking someone if they are ok could be the difference between life and death but we are all just too damn busy. I ( Read more... )

THinking today of how much I hate playing music because it is one more thing that I am not that good at. Its the same reason why I hate to play in front of people ..I really do long to be invisible sometimes. Have you ever had the feeling like your going to explode and its not out of anger or happiness....you just feel like your going crazy and ( Read more... )