For some crazy reason I woke up this morning & thought, "I wonder what's new on LJ?" It seems FB has taken over and no one posts here anymore. FB is too public for me for delve into much of real life ( Read more... )

I haven't written much here in awhile. Life just keeps moving forward. I don't know what 2018 has in store for me as I contemplate a career change that will give me more freedom from being tied to my phone & always available to people I don't really care about. I'm working on getting better organized so I can have more joy & less stress ( Read more... )

We all know how much I hate change but last week did not go the way I had planned and today I find myself trying to create change in my life ( Read more... )

I'm super excited to be camping & kayaking this weekend! And then I made the list of everything I need to get and felt a little overwhelmed. I literally have to rebuild, gather everything but I started today with a new camp stove! I still need a so much but I have my list and I'm just going to work all week on tracking stuff down. I'm very sad to ( Read more... )

Today has sucked big time. The month of July can just go fuck itself.

I don't really know where to start and suddenly I realize that this truly is the ramblings of a saucy wench ( Read more... )

Forrest is struggling with some pretty severe depression and it is almost killing me. When your child hurts the pain is almost excruciating. Nothing feels good right now.
I'm scared.

Trying to keep the glass half full. The last week has been pretty hard. My heart is hurting but I'm trying to keep focused and not fall back into bad habits. I think you get use to something being the way it is and it's very hard to change old habits. I've been using lots of mantras to make myself remember what it means to be happy and healthy. It' ( Read more... )

Do I sleep or go to the gym. I'm tired from not sleeping. My eyes hurt from crying and my level of frustration is causing me to feel like my head is going to explode. I need something good. Honestly, I think I might just finally lose it and really have a meltdown. Why can't I get a mental vacay and a week at Laureate to get my shit together. In the ( Read more... )

It's been awhile since I've updated and a lot has changed and a lot has not changed. Living without Levi in my life has been a hard adjustment. I thought we would part friends that we could continue to honor everything we had had and been through but unfortunately, that was not how things turned out. For her, she had to make me out to be some evil ( Read more... )