You notice things that other people don’t and you call me out on it. Usually I like this, I think its cute and it makes me feel special to have someone who interprets me so well and take the time to pay attention. But today to you told me something that really go under my skin. You said that I liked control I reluctantly agreed, but didn’t really ( Read more... )

I heard you talking on the phone yesterday to someone and for a moment I felt jealous thinking it was another girl. And then I had to check myself because we’re friends and I have no right to feel that way and because we work together and it would make things too complicated to feel that way. But I do feel that way and as much as I try to talk ( Read more... )

I went to my old neighborhood last night-where I used to live in the city before I moved out towards the burbs with the ex. I showed my friends the thrift stores with the amazing vintage dresses for under $30. I gushed over the used bookstore that I used to wander through in the long afternoons, browsing the piles upon piles of books reaching up ( Read more... )

I’m not stupid so please don’t treat me like I am. I know I’m naive and probably mostly for trusting you. Even so, at least give me the benefit of the doubt and just tell me the truth. I’m a big girl I can handle it. I know you have a new girlfriend in the city. Even if you play the pronoun game and say you went the the Cubs game with your “guy ( Read more... )

After going home for an extended Mother’s Day weekend, I came to the realization that I come from a pool of messed up women. Don’t get me wrong, I love my Mom, sister and grandmother, but they all have no idea what they are doing when it comes to men ( Read more... )

At a church meeting last night, someone said something that just made me stop and think. He was one of those kind of crazy ex-druggie/newly saved people who go off on on tangents about Jesus and the Devil and everything inbetween. But he said one thing that was actually kind of remarkable. He said, we sin because we can't find love. And really, ( Read more... )

I've been living in the "real world" for a month. It's all done and it's all beginning at the same time, yet here I sit restless and bored. The graduation ceremony didn't give me any closure I didn't really even want to do it in the first place. Columbia really didn't have a campus or any sense of a college community. I only really talked to a ( Read more... )

I wish we would have just stuck to keeping Valentine's Day low key. I know he tries and I love him so much, but with my luck, something always is bound to go wrong (wow, I'm pessimistic ( Read more... )

Dave and I aren't greeting card holiday people. I joke that Dave gave me socks for Sweetest day, because it just turned out that we were at the store and I found some awesome socks on sale and he offered to put them on his bill with the pants he was buying. So when Valentines Day rolled around, I didn't really do anything significant to celebrate ( Read more... )

So we are not living together after all. At first I was crushed and then angry and then defensive and distant. Now I'm finally getting used to the fact that come summer we will live in separate places- like we do now- just farther away- like it used to be. So are we moving backwards? I don't know. This is what I do know ( Read more... )