i guess there's no reason to keep this journal anymore.
this is it.

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i ain't got many friends left to talk to ( Read more... )

happy birthday steve.

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the fight



oliver: when will you get better?
jason: in the spring.
igby: the spring?
jason: i'm no good in the winter. these gray days...
...they're so sad.
oliver: what about next winter?

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i met up with jonathan and kathy tonight and the rest of the san juan death squad. we were sitting on the patio at gondas and ben brought his guitar and started playing this song, kathy on the harmonic and jonathan and i singing along.
it was one of those nights.

i think if i could be in their company on a regular basis, i would be alright.

...The only sadnesses that are dangerous and unhealthy are the ones that we carry around in public in order to drown them out with the noise; like diseases that are treated superficially and foolishly, they just withdraw and after a short interval break out again all the more terribly; and gather inside us and are life, are life that is unlived, ( Read more... )

multiplication, you and me, for we is love and love is gain and what is broken beats again.

i think that's what you said to me.

the only thing you're breaking is my heart.

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oh noose ( Read more... )

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