I fucking removed myself from Myspace & Facebook. I'm scared, liberated and skipping class. You can reach me at mdotmettler@gmail.com

I am drained. seriously. I feel boring and over worked. I miss the days of unemployment - or even just a day off. I can't do this. I'm not quiting - I have 5 more weeks of work - but, 3 weeks with no day off is crazy. I can't do it, I just fucking can't. I'm jealous of everyone who doesn't work and I wish, I fucking wish that I didn't feel like I'm ( Read more... )

I'm over this Brian thing. He's just wierd. He thinks I sweat his junk, and I think he tries to take advantage of that. I could just be paranoid - but, I'd rather be paranoid then get used. I'm turning into a triangle forrest groupie, I even messed around with there video director. I was plastered last night, and he's just cute. the whole situation ( Read more... )

The roads collide in a jagged pattern from every possible direction, connecting Westminster with Valley and Broadway with Manton Avenue. It is mid-day, mid winter and its cold enough for a jacket, but not cold enough for gloves. I am sans sunglasses and I just slipped out of class early to eat tacos from a stand in Olneyville Square ( Read more... )

Goosebumps graced my pale skin and the sun made my eyes flinch and squint. It was mid- July and the city was facing a heat wave of astronomical temperatures. It was also moving day. For a month prior, we had an empty apartment with dark uninviting wood walls. We whitewashed, and then painted them with rich, vibrant colors and whatever half empty ( Read more... )

The last week has been so much fun. Everything is just great, I have this glow on my face that just doesn't go away. People say, they've never seen me happier. I don't think I've ever been happier, really. To be honest, it's this awesome sense of community and "home" that surrounds me...I love being able to walk to everyones house, walk everyones ( Read more... )

I’m from New Jersey, and I’m exit 73. I’m from New Jersey and I’ll drive circles around you on the turnpike. I’m from New Jersey, and I eat pork roll. Pork roll, also known as “taylor ham” was invented by a man named John Taylor in the late 19th century. It’s mostly seen on a bulkie, or hard roll, with a fried egg and American cheese. It’s a staple ( Read more... )

The Last Meal ( Read more... )

In the past 3 months, things have changed. For one, I now have a collar bone and only 1 chin. 65 lbs. I thought It make me happy, I feel the same. Its great to be a size 18, almost 16...but, I'm still the same person. I'm scared for all the attention, it makes me nervous and fills me with feelings of anxiety. Its so wierd, because it just sort of ( Read more... )

Also, I hate him. I mean it. You can't call me in the Hospital you selfish prick? You think I'll get over this and forgive you, I won't. Beg and plead, but I will never see you the same as I did. Your words and your actions don't line up. Its amazing how I dealt with you, how I put up with all your bullshit. You put me down this whole time, and I ( Read more... )