Here I am without one damn care about it all anymore. the words don't push the buttons anymore atleast not hers. I dunno why not, they used to before those words used to eat away at me. But now nothing, i dunno why. I really wish i could explain, but i just can't so i will go on to other matters. I think I am really starting to like ashleigh ( Read more... )

He kissed me but all I felt was numb, a simple kiss on the cheek. As he walked away into the cold grayness of the night. I felt the overwhelming pain of truth collide into me, like a thousand blows all at once and as I shut the door my knees grew weak. Making it hard to even pull my muscles together long enough to force my body into my room. ( Read more... )

So basically life is great! I am over josh completely and I am ready to open myself up to whatever, without tryiing to force it, just letting things happen as they may. Yay for life..... Today i kind of felt very shitty towards the end just cause i dunno... I had this fear inside of me a fear I haven't felt since the begaining of the year, ( Read more... )

Drugs, drinking, sex ( Read more... )

I needed to write at this very moment, I couldn't not. As tears forceable pry themselves from my eyes and burn every inch of skin before finally slipping away to the floor, I found myself strongly in need of expressing my bottled up emotions. Tears fall when friends are not around, and the alone feelings covers my entire body. Noone understands ( Read more... )

So basically I am the most happy that i have been in a very very long time! I actually wake up and find that I want to get up and go out to be apart of the world rather than rolling over and covering my body in the blankets, shutting my eyes tightly until the sleep can once again consume me. My whole life I had thought that being something ( Read more... )

do you ever feel that a day of horrible emotion can suddenly inturn fix itself completely and leave you with a feeling of relief adn understanding to which caused the pain in the first place... Today i felt as if my entire world had fallen apart mitchell was avoiding a single conversation with me, erika and I hadn't talked for real in a good few ( Read more... )

Kiss my lips today and rep the fears of your actions tomorrow. Hmm why was this my opening quote i guess it is because i feel like the girl taht you touch and forget that you want but hate everyone else to know that you want her. Believe me that is what i have been my whole life no matter how much i wish i wasn't and how much i try to change. ( Read more... )

Well it has been alittle while since I have written in this online port of emotions. I guess you can say alot of things have been happening lately! I am getting to be really good friends with ashely and sam, I have been partying alot more than usually and my reputation is harming me more than it is helping me. I guess its because so many ( Read more... )

Do you remeber the last time that the world seemed to all work for you in everyway. I can't, I did something dumb the other day unlike the many dumb things i do already and it made me relise that sometimes in life we don't get a secound chance we don't get to have another wack at that super prize of life. The tears that are running down my face ( Read more... )