I had a lot to say three hours ago, and now, well I am sure I could say a lot but sure if it will make sense or necessary. I guess I should start with where I am at emotionally, I could cry some more, but I don't know what it would solve, just make me feel more helpless and stupid. I should be dancing around my house naked, enjoying the freedom ( Read more... )

You would think with all my new found free time, i would write more. Heaven knows i have been thinking more. Sorting revaluating, figuring out what does not work. What does. Wondering why it is so much easier to focus on the negative. So many things are good, I have a car, own my home. I don't hate my job, I have a lot more free time. I ( Read more... )

I seriously should never walk into a clothing store again, I have more clothes that I never wear or forgot to wear. Then I have more clothes that if I just lost 50 lbs I could wear. And I have decided to try to wear them. Which means that I need to loose 50 lbs? I am going to start to be serious about working out. That will be my first goal, ( Read more... )

Wow, I should have written this last night when I was just full of great ideas. Last night I had one of those evenings were I found myself going wow, why are I allowing this to be done to me. I mean why should a girl as smart and cool as I am put up with such a loser. When did I let my self esteem issues be dictated by someone who doesn't even ( Read more... )

We live in a world of disposable relationships, we dont know our neighbors, we spend to much time with our computers and not enough time with people. We marry for the moment and if it gets too tough, we get divorced and move on. Or we never marry and just live with an assortment of people. We dont wait to get married, we are lucky if we wait ( Read more... )

Well at first I was angry and now, I am just disappointed, because someone I love and trust has decided that I am the first one to call when things go well and the last one when things go wrong. Which I know sounds twisted but it really hurt my feelings. I am not a fair weathered friend, I am there through the thick and thin of things and it just ( Read more... )

So I know it has been awhile, but I finally escaped GES after CES. I got an offer to go to Service Plumbing and of course I jumped. I am loving it, fewer hours, more pay. It is a good gig. I am wanted and needed on my team. I am learning a ton of stuff and I am going to be an asset to this company. They are so happy to have me and that makes ( Read more... )

Somewhere I lost me, who I was, what I wanted. It is so easy to become the person that you feel like everyone needs or maybe even wants but in the process, I forgot what I wanted. I let go of my passions and just accepted to live life like the normal every day person. When did I decide that was acceptable to me, when did I decide to be normal ( Read more... )

Not sure where the month of November disappeared but here we are the week before thanksgiving and just on the second day of my vacation. Not sure how I feel these days, I took this quiz that stated I was clinically depressed and I should seek professional help, which I knew I was depressed but I didn't think it was that bad. Granted since I don't ( Read more... )

Yes, I am watching my little dirt devil clean today. Ahh when he is in the mood he is a cleaning freak. Which is good for me, the cleanest porch on the block, and now the cleanest living room. I just don't want him to slow down. If he can just keep it up right into the kitchen. I went out with Kimberly this weekend and met the stage manager at ( Read more... )