Don't you have those days where you just wish you knew what the future had in store for you. That if you knew for a fact that this dark storm cloud was only going to last a few days more, or that that perfect moment was just around the cornor, it would just be so easy to breeze through it. This too shall pass, just keeps slipping out of my mouth ( Read more... )

It is sad when you reach that point. And a lot of people will just assume this is about my relationship but really it is about work. I just am beyond caring right now and all I can think about is getting out, before I get any more despondant about it. I used to love my job, the people I worked with, and now, I can't say any of that. I dread ( Read more... )

Wow, sometimes pulling yourself out of the depression is the toughest thing in the world. I have never had such terrible feeling of helpless. I can honestly I have never wanted to end it all until this month. I guess I finally just hit that low that everyone has talked about and I just did not comprehend. Wow, I have a new respect for that ( Read more... )

Wow, I needed this three day weekend, though the one thing I need most is not something I am getting without feeling guilty. I am so tired and all I want to do is lay on the couch and read. Brian is in the middle of this huge project that has filled his weekend and I have been in to help a couple times but I feel like I am more help if I stay out ( Read more... )

I guess I lost the month of August somewhere. Not really sure where and I can't say that I am going to look back and think wow what a month. I learned some tough lessons about finance, I really am a girl who should be on an allowance. That life is always throwing curves but when you have a good support team you can get through any thing. My dad ( Read more... )

Wow, it has been just one of those weeks, the weekend was so incredible, so I should have known that the bottom was going to fall out at some point. And though I am not happy at work and all the changes, I can't do much about it but play the game until I find a new playground to play in. I was reminded that GES was not a distanation but a side ( Read more... )

Okay I am not sure what I was expecting by my return to Sin City, I knew the mayor was not going to throw a parade or anything. I started to read a book last night called something about maybe you are just not into him either. It was very interesting but I guess it wasn't what I needed to be reading when I came home to the guy I am not so sure ( Read more... )

So I have been home in Price for about a week, the sisters left yesterday and I have the house pretty much to myself, what I always joke about, so this is what being an only child would have been like. Miles away from the stress and disappointment of work. Talked to Brian last night about the nightmare work had been. We need to get out. The joy ( Read more... )

If I could have gone on Monday I would have. I am just so tired of everything and everyone. Though going home may not be the best cure for it all. I just have had enough of so much. Everyone thinks they can do it better, have the answers and they just want to assure us that we have been doing it wrong for so long. You know what, we did the ( Read more... )

At least I can admit that, that I have no idea what is going on in my life. I have to say we are good at falling into patterns. It is easy to play house. And if you were looking in, you would have to say that we look like the average happy couple. I am also a theatre major, so looks can be deceiving. I mean I do think we are happy, but the ( Read more... )