It's official..I/we take Deuce to a vet who works with Heartland Humane Society and drop him off and his foster mom will pick him up.  I talked with her tonight and explained the why....it's a matter of Ed's health.  He's not even 2 yet!  I asked if we could give them the rest of the food and the litter and she said we could...and to bring ( Read more... )

Today was the first weekend that I can actually said went well.  Ed went and did grocery shopping and then Kelley and I did some more thrift store shopping for a chair and stuff for my space away from Ed that will happen this spring.  I bought a couple pair of earrings and a basket to keep ALL his medications in, so it's not so messy!  He's been in ( Read more... )

Ah...the weekend when most people look forward to spending time with family and doing all kinds of fun stuff.  Not so much here.  Although, since I haven't been here in a few days, some things have changed.  (a cord from my wi-fi had been messed up, so no internet, but I fixed it myself ( Read more... )

It was nice having a quiet home while Ed was in the hospital.  Will probably need to re-home my furbabies because of his allergy and coughing is not good for his esophageal-stomach junction, which is where the ulcer is located that caused the extensive bleeding, weakness and dehydration because he wasn't eating or drinking ( Read more... )

Started the day out usuallly....Ed gets up and starts the whining and all the usual....long story short (just because I'm not in the mood this morning to blog about the crappy life I have right now ( Read more... )

Saturday morning started as usual with words between Ed and I and with me in tears.  Cannot say or do anything right.  He completely did not take his medications on Friday (even after reminding him)...I do not know what it is like to raise children, and I have absolutely no patience for this crap.  This morning he realizes he took some hamburger ( Read more... )

I'm up at 4 a.m. because I couldn't stand being around Ed any longer so I took a Valium and went into my room to read, but somehow have my Kindlewith a black background and white letters and it's difficult to read, so I went to sleep.  Got up and went to pee and left my door cracked and soon I had Deuce lying on me.  4 a.m. he decided it was time ( Read more... )

While most of us look forward to Fridays, since Thanksgiving I do not.  The weekends are so hard!  Time with Ed all day long, evenings and mornings.  The only type of escape is sleeping.  I go to bed so early, I'm awake a 4 a.m. so I watch DOOL and have begun using my LJ again on the new laptop I bought last weekend ( Read more... )

I'm so thankful that I have a job that takes so much energy....there is none left to give once I get home.  I have not really had a conversation with my husband for at least a week.  Last night I asked me "can we now stop fighting?" .. how can people fight when there is not much talking going on?  I fill his daily and weekly A.M. and P.M. reminder ( Read more... )

The stress of living with Ed is going to kill me.  My blood sugars are running high.  We don't talk about anything.  He gets mad so easily that I try very hard not to start any conversations.  Whatever I do, it's wrong.  I drive the wrong way, a cough irritates him and he groans and grunts.  I know I need to find an outlet for the stress and some ( Read more... )