i love elias ( Read more... )

elias's nipples are tickilish!!!

i gots me a paycheck so i can start my xmas shopping... haha i'm lame.

i don't have to work tomorrow and i have ninety eight bucks in my wallet!!! most to be spent on lias's present, of course. poor boy was in the hospital sunday. fell off the ladder at work. sprain his back and had a concussion. but now he has hydro-codeine... i was there with him until one and my mom still made me go to school the next morning ( Read more... )

i hate people. i think i hate most all of them. i think i will go and feel lonely now

if some one's got a fucking problem with me they need to stop being such a fucking pussy and say it to my face. you're fucking pathetic

i talked to elias about the caroline thing, and he said he wouldn't talk to her anymore. at all. and he hasn't cheated on me. erik told kelsey about me and him, which pissed me off and kinda makes me want to let lias beat his ass. so we didn't break up on friday like i intended to do if he still wanted to be friends with caroline. he spent the ( Read more... )

i dont think elias cheated on me. but maybe he's a really good liar? lias says he's not going to hang out with caroline anymore though, which i guess is what i wanted but makes me feel bad that he's burning bridges because of me. although it's more her fault for spreading rumors? unless theyre true... but i dont think they are. elias seems ( Read more... )

so this weekend completely sucked. i feel like it's the andrew/kelsey thing again. but elias swears to not cheating on me. and some of what caroline's been saying doesn't add up and this is also the fucked up girl who lied for three months about being pregnant. but if it is true i don't want to be blind like i was with andrew. because i just ( Read more... )

for every step forward we take, we fall back two more. then jump up three. i can't handle this anymore, my legs are getting tired. maybe i wasn't ready to get in so deep. maybe you're not ready. maybe we just suck. you don't play fair. when i try to be quiet and rational you get mad, if i get mad then you become sweet and don't let me feel ( Read more... )

these scars keep adding up and i'll never forget their marks. i'll remember this always, and though i may forgive it in time, i can always look down and remind myself of how much i hated being me tonight. being so melodramatic and tender hearted is slowly killing me. i know i'm doing most of this to myself, maybe making it worse than it really ( Read more... )