dont know what to say, do, act or feeel

numb

tonight was just a pile of shit.... yes yes it was fucking yeah pissed off now to hell

should i get my hair cut again, i am bored with it, the going blonde made me un sick of it for a while but now i want it cut again but its rather short lol

Its my last night in american...i dont want to leave....i want to stay....i feel in my head that it not time to leave but have to

need to stop being a lazy arse and get it sorted !!!!!!

also new laptop ness so that one less thing to blame the slowness on dammmm

she still trying to fuck with my head but i am not lettin her now

ohh i need a opertaion on my mouth :-( so not having it yet lol seein how thing pan on in the gum line lo

well things are going pretty sort off all right, me and sam are now offically together fully and thats good scary tho but good, her house matre keeps saying shit to her and me about each other but thankful we know what her game is and we know not to belive it lol off to manchester this weekend with her to meet her bestie mate from south africa so ( Read more... )

just a short as i want to vent, been thinking about the past too much latey i think its because it comin up to the point in the year what i am dreading, i know i cant cope with it and put it too the back off my head and not thought off it for the last 11 and half months and its coming around so fast meh meh not a good idea to read back over jouranl ( Read more... )

moving tomorrow (monday) just over to boro but it feel like a it will take forever, well prob cos i still done no shopping or packin ohh well just move the boxes in and then on tuesday i can unpaack ( Read more... )

Disney family holiday is not happening now :'( but the reason it is off is cos my sister in law is having another baby !! hehee cant wait me sean going to have a little sister or brother to play with !!!

Move to boro on monday!!!

RAN = Ramdon ass night --- yup that was friday night wait friday day, ohh simpson movie is good i was shocked as i am not a hugh fan lol yeah but friday was a ramdon as night, need another one but wont hav one for a few weeks now!! ohh this time next week i be at sea ohh shitty im scared but will have just spent the day in north africa and prob be ( Read more... )