When you see an ambulance race by what do you think?

I thick of someone losing a father to a heart attack, and never experiencing the joy of being taught by him to ride a bike

I think of someone losing a grandmother to a stroke,  never getting  the chance to bake a cake with her….

I think of a drunk driver  slamming into a toddler, a child that ( Read more... )

I've been binging and purging for nine years now.

Just thought I'd throw that out there:)

yay

d
History likes to repeat itself, doesn’t it?
I thought things were supposed to get better with the onset of sunny days and warmer weather. That doesn’t seem to be the case with me. Same story as last year, and the year before that, and, well, you get the idea.

For reasons beyond my comprehension, I have a tendency to become overly melancholic as ( Read more... )

Has it really been 21 weeks Since my last post?

Wow.

And to think, there was a time, say, some 5 years ago, when I would post daily. Sometimes more than once.

Maybe people don’t change, but some details might alter.

I should mention that the main reason I felt like writing now is boredom. I’m at work, none of my co workers are in the room right now, ( Read more... )

I’m dreaming in a straight line, I’m finally motivated to breathe

The air feels like life, the life I never wanted to see

I want to see

I can see

The sun shines on my skin,

The warmth passes through my passion

I finally see

What was senseless makes sense

I don’t care if that makes sense

And that makes sense for once

I never wanted to ( Read more... )

I’ve reached that point in my life I was always fearful of: I’m 25, going on 26, after uni with 2 degrees, living in my parents basement, can’t be bothered to get a job, can’t be bothered to figure out what to do with myself.

I think I knew this was going to be the scenario of my life since I was about 14, ever since I knew we’d move to Poland.

I ( Read more... )

Mindless pleasantries

The taunting, the tease.

Thanks yous and please

But no need to get off your knees

Over the course of the last ten years, I’ve been told many times that my bitter and cynical outward persona is nothing more than a facade.

The few times I’ve actually given in and believed that there’s something else beneath it ….

Someone told me a few weeks ago that the reason I can’t stand Latin music is because a Latin girl must have broken my ( Read more... )

It’s been one of those surreal nights.

I’m out at a club with a friend.  He’s not Polish

To make things clear , he’s a “player”

He tells me that I’m dumb for admitting that I speak Polish…. He suggests s that if I want to get laid, I should just stick to English, pretend to be a foreigner.

I quote “ man if they can talk to you in Polish, ( Read more... )

It’s already past 5;30.

I haven’t slept more than 4 hours a night over the last week.  I  haven’t slept at al today.

But I’m done.  Just have to go to Marta’s work and print it out.  Then I can go hand it in.

I have a strange feeling I’ll be resubmitting.

When you’re deprived of sleep, the world gets interesting.

Everything seems to be ( Read more... )