i need to get out of here. theres too much drama. too many things going on.
away is where i want to be. from everything. from everyone.
it seems like no matter what i do or feel it hurts. whether its me or not, it still hurts me.

new years is soon. maybe everything else will be new too. hopefully.

today was such a good day. i dont really know why. but it was. i love people. and i love talking to people. certain ones put a smile on my face. others are gay. but thats alright. awe! im so girly. heh ( Read more... )

being grounded is so depressing. so isolating, so lonely. oh well. i saw it coming. it seems like nobodys happy. like everyones lost. i dont feel lost anymore. i feel like i know where i am. finally. not completely. but thats just asking too much. i dont feel so, i dunno, i cant explain it. i just want people to be happy now. or maybe not so lost ( Read more... )

...yup shes right ( Read more... )

.pure.innocent.corrupt ( Read more... )

so ive barely slept since we got out of school. im not very tired though, but im sure if i fell asleep i could sleep for days ( Read more... )

this "holiday weekend" isnt turning out like i wanted it too. i dunno why. i thought maybe itd be funner. more eventful. i guess its been okay. met two cute boys, this Evan kid. hes 19, but thats okay, hes still cute. his friend called me today. hopefully ill get to hang out with him again, cuz hes nioce too.....tammie says we can. then this guy ( Read more... )

i had a really weird dream last night, i didnt like it when i woke up, it made me feel bad, sad even. i dunno. its just a dream though. uhm, i dont feel very good today. that sux. im so out of it, even sarah said so. hm. im getting a snowborad tonight for 100$ from Ryan. thats exciting. yay! im also hanging out with danielle, tammie, jessica, and ( Read more... )

i have to do a project on who i am for english. how am i supposed to do that when i dont even know who i am anymore ( Read more... )

im gonna go home and sleep ( Read more... )